I've been thinking about Mick's tale of deathbed repentance all morning, and have decided to share one of my own.
Rufus lay dying. His heart was heavy, aching with grief over a life wasted. He had been born a child of privilege, given everything anyone could possibly want. He'd attended the best schools, had the nicest clothes and traveled the world. People knew his name. What had he ever given back? Poring over memories of his past, he was filled with regret. In Rufus' life, Rufus had always been number one. Nothing had mattered but his own selfish desires. How many, many people had he hurt throughout the years? How many lives had his own greed, dishonesty and deceit destroyed? As he thought of what might have been, of the good he might have done, tears of shame stung his eyes.
For some reason, he remembered kneeling beside his bed as a child, his mother teaching him to pray. That must have been what? over seventy-five years ago? He hadn't spoken to God for years. They were strangers and, until this moment, he hadn't cared. Life had been too good to waste it on Christianity. He shuddered to realize what he'd missed. Now, in the last moments of his life, he prayed, hesitantly, humbly. "God, remember me... Rufus? I... I know how disappointed you must be in me. I'm disappointed in myself, believe me. I was so blessed and yet so arrogant and full of pride. I didn't need you. I had my own gods -- money, power, fame. Where are they now? How foolish I've been. How foolish and how sinful. God, if by chance, it's not too late for me... If in your mercy you can still see a part of me worth saving, then let your Son's sacrifice cleanse me. Let me see your face, God. If I have waited too long... if the time is too far spent, then God, your will be done." A peace fell over Rufus. Closing his eyes for the last time, he felt happier than at any time in his nearly eighty years. He felt a hand on his shoulder and a whisper in his ear, "I love you, Rufus, more than you can even begin to imagine. Paradise awaits you, and eventually, if it's what you choose, Eternal Life in the presence of my Father."