Thank you for your frank statements. I was raised as a Presbyterian. Both my parents were Presbyterians. We lived about half a block from the church. We went to church every Sunday. We attended church family events. I sang in the church's junior choir. We did Christmas caroling to housebound people.
I was raised in an affluent suburb of ultra-liberal Portland OR. It was only much later that I realized that the version of Presbyterianism that we were presented with was a much different version than official Presbyterianism. For example, there was never any mention of predestination-- though Presbyterianism is well-known as an offshoot of Calvinism. In fact the Presbyterian web site still upholds predestination as a basic tenet of the faith:
Presbyterian Predestination statement
I spent a great deal of time reading the Bible, as well as many other ancient texts. There is so much of the Bible that is wonderful and beautifully written. It's a real treasure, in that it gives us the only way we have to understand how people of the ancient world thought. But there is a great deal of the Bible that just doesn't make any sense in the modern world. An example would be the inclusion of laws about slavery in the laws that were given to Moses by God: Exodus 21:1 - 11. Such laws may have made some kind of sense in a world in which slavery was commonplace, not just in Roman society but throughout the world. But they make no sense at all in a modern context.