I made a video of one of my Shrines to her:
When I made this shrine for her I saw a Hawk in a tree and one in the sky while hauling rocks to make her a shrine. One meaning for "Hawkins" is "Hawk training, falconry".
Hawks are the main Egyptian Deities. I last Easter told Georgann Hawkins I would buy my neighbor his car part , and that I was doing it for her.
Afterwards I learned my neighbor's last name was "Hawkins". Just coincidence?
I see her as a patron Saint of Sociopaths or sadists or people with serial killer tendencies. I really struggled with similar sicknesses growing up and she has held my hand, mothered me, nurtured me, carried me through some deeply tough, difficult, disturbing times and given me joy in jails and mental institutions.
I feel she and I love sick people without loving what they do.
I make Shrines to her and other murdered girls and buy them flowers. It started with her.
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She died helping a man with crutches pretending to be injured and dropping his books and falling. She died for an act of kindness so is in heaven.
She died in 1974 and when I was in jail I found one coin, a 1974 penny and the first four letters of the word coincidence are coin.
When the coin was confiscated as contraband I walked out to the book cart and the new magazine on top said in big yellow letters "Pennies".
An inmate not knowing about the coin said "the dead speak through feathers and coins".
Police have confiscated some of my Shrines and interrogated me and took pictures of my room.
Mental Health professionals think its creepy I make Shrines and plant flowers for murdered ladys and bless them and pray for and to them, but it makes me more loving.
I pray they reach the first degrees of beauty, power, glory, perfection, euphoria, and their dreams come true.
I was a sociopath and sadistic because my mother didn't pay me any attention mainly and she was cheating on my Dad and I got kidnapped as a child.
These women taught me how to love and provided maternal nurtering and care. If it makes me more kind to people I fail to see it as negative.
But it's weird and spooky I guess.
She went not by her full name but by "George". I always thought that was such a charming name for a female ever since.
I call her " President George Washington" because she was from Washington State.
First male President was George whom the State is named after. First female President, the eternal Spirit president is George too. Patron Saint of USA. At least in my heart.
She was a daffodil Princess, straight A student, bright future, talented, charming, and nicknamed the pied Piper , because everyone wanted to follow her.
But yeah, that's crazy you call yourself George. I had a big birthday celebration for her two days ago and wrote her letters, sang her happy birthday and songs.