I am aware of all the things you are, but you do not understand the reality on the other side of the senses is not separate from reality within oneself, it is one. One can not convey this realty to you because your mind has only the expectation to learn by using your bodies senses, and reality is on the other side, so the best I can do is use these words to explain that the reality beyond words, is non-conceptual.
The only way it can be realized is to still your mind, and when that happens, the conceptualizing 'I' does not arise to obscure the real. There can be no explaining of what is on the other side of the senses, because the senses can not ever in all eternity apprehend it and thus can never experience it.