Maybe...or maybe God just isn't there at all.
It probably would have been better if God had never sent any angels or messengers or tried to communicate with His creation at all. Especially if He was planning on pulling the silent routine most of the time. If He had kept silent and never told anyone of His existence, then everyone would be an atheist. There really wouldn't be any need to even identify as "atheist."
It's also possible that God wants us to be agnostic, since unless someone can claim that God has spoken to them personally, no one has any more knowledge than anyone else. If you don't truly know something, then be honest about it and say "I don't know." It's the people who have "faith" and claim to know something when they really don't - they're lying, and if there is a God, He will likely call them on that.
I truly feel for you and all agnostics. If I become agnostic again I'll likely kill myself. I have had many expensive hospitalizations, therapies, shock treatments, medications, brain scan, DBT, rehab, and the help has been minimal. I hate being alive and tried suicide by laying down in front of an oncoming train. I just want to die and hate being alive.
The only thing that helped me was prayer, especially the Rosary and devotion to Mother Mary. It is totally free and helped me more than all those costly professionals and drugs with side-effects.
I have often been suicidal and filled with repugnance for life, and prayer swiftly transformed my feelings into joy, euphoria, and peace.
When I am deeply prayerful, I become a meek, humble, polite, and charitable person. When I don't pray or turn to the spirits and God for help, I become immature, inane, drug-addicted, dishonest, perverted, selfish, and worthless!
I don't do Dogma because Dogma divides people and the sacred texts lead people to opposite beliefs, but prayer is everything to me, because it is the only thing that helps. It would be impossible for me to be an Atheist because of the coincidences and experiences I've had that were revolutionizing, transforming, and consoling...
...But I truly feel for you and other agnostic/atheists. The sad fact is God hides himself and leaves any rational thinker with the thought that maybe he isn't there or doesn't care, and I find that very sad