One of the reasons, I made this thread is to me, I often find the person I am being on the outside doesn't reflect who I am inside. With so much competing for my attention in the outside world, be it, religion, sex, ads, politics, friends, etc... It takes an incredible amount of self control to not be influenced by, and yet still retain some sense of who I was as far back as a young child I can recall.
I am only concerned with genuineness here mind you, in that, sometimes I can not tell if the person I see in the mirror is simply a creation of the collected outside experience, or if something genuine from inside me still exists, or if it ever existed at all.
Does that make sense to anyone?
Like a log drifting in the ocean, it collects different seaweed and bits and pieces, but overall it just drifts and has no control of what it becomes or what it really is.
Now I realize we are not as passive as a log drifting in the ocean, but it is amazing to sometimes catch that feeling of floating in an ocean where you have no sense of control no matter how hard you try to control.