Ormiston said:
No. I truly believe that I can't be saved because of "the way I'm wired". I'm incapable of being a Christian. My question is if by no fault of my own, I truly can't be saved, then why should I be punished?
My motivation is to get opinions, but I also wanted the Christians to think with their own heads and step away from the scripture for a moment. What if I can't be saved. What does that have to say for the Christian message? Where does the problem lie?
If you ever get a legitimate answer to this question, please, by all means drop me a pm or an e-mail. I have been asking this same question for years, and have never received a satisfactory answer. I was also raised in a Christian church, in a Christian family surrounded by Christian neighbors, and even as a small child could never make it all "fit" or "make sense" for lack of a better way to put it.
I began my search into history and theology hoping and literally praying to find something which would allow me to be both intellectually honest, and saved. Sadly the more I searched, the more I read the more I talked to learned people, the more and more I got away from my original goal, which was, of course, to be a Christian, without being dishonest with myself.
I fear that I too, lack the capacity to be "saved." It is not for lack of desire to be saved, and it is certainly not for a lack of knowledge regarding the various scriptures and the secular history of the Biblical times.
To those who have asked basically (gross paraphrase here) "Why Christianity?" I would submit that if one is raised in a Christian culture it simply makes the most sense to try to be a "good Christian" as opposed to any other particular religion. Having read an extensive amount on various world religions I can personally say, that if I, personally were to ever become religious again, it would most likely be one of the Eastern religions such as Hinduism, or more likely Buddhism, as those religions appeal to me more than the Abrahamic religions.
That being said, as much flack as I get for being a simple non-beleiver, if I were to espouse such a "wacky" (by local standards) religion as Buddhism, I would probably get even more flack than I already get. Tho this would likely spark some lively debates which might be a lot of fun. . . . I can imagine it now. . . .
"Brian, why did you decide to become a Buddhist?"
"Because it made the most sense to me out of the available religious choices I had, Why did you become Christian"
"Because the Bible/My Preacher/My family says this is the way to go"
"Ahh, I see you are pulling out a trump card, well, when you can convince me why Buddhism, or any other world religion is NOT the way to go, then maybe you will have some understanding of why I have never been able to decide Christianity is the way to go"
A puzzled look ensues, and the person dismisses me as some kook, and we both go on about our way.
B.