What are you running from?

[Spiderman]

Do you ever do things with the intention of escaping reality.

What will really help me though is getting a job and actually holding it. I have mental health professionals including a vocations specialist who are good at finding mental cases work and they are trying to find me work and I can use them as references.

I stopped working because I screw up at every job. Last job I had was detailing cars. We spent all day vacuuming the inside of the car and washing the outside. We made the car look spotless and someone was coming to buy it. Then I backed the car out of the garage and didn't see a concrete pole, so while turning the vehicle, it scraped the pole causing the mirror and the head light to come off and leaving a big dent. Someone was going to buy the frigging thing and I screwed it up after working on it diligently for hours.

Ever since then, I had a phobia of working. Last time I worked fast food I took a box cutter and stabbed my wrists leaving a trail of blood all over the floor. It actually made me feel better but freaked out my superior. Working has always been very stressful and I find myself extremely distracted living in the past and living in a different world where I can't focus. But miracles are possible.

I eventually want to be a peer support specialist which is a mentally ill person who helps out others who are mentally ill. In order to get that job I need two years of not getting hospitalized and staying sober. Miracles can happen though.

Don't feel sorry for me though because some of this I brought on myself.

 

[Revoltingest]

Do you ever do things with the intention of escaping reality. I think everyone knows what I'm trying to escape so no need to be a broken record. What will really help though is getting a job and actually holding it. I have mental health professionals including a vocations specialist who are good at finding mental cases work.

I stopped working because I screw up at every job. Last job I had was detailing cars. We spent all day vacuuming the inside of the car and washing the outside. We made the car look spotless and someone was coming to buy it. Then I backed the car out of the garage and didn't see a concrete pole, so while turning the vehicle, it scraped the pole causing the mirror and the head light to come off and leaving a big dent.

Ever since then, I had a phobia of working. Last time I worked fast food I took a box cutter and stabbed my wrists leaving a trail of blood all over the floor. It actually made me feel better but freaked out my superior. Working has always been very stressful and I find myself extremely distracted living in the past and living in a different world where I can't focus. But miracles are possible.

I eventually want to be a peer support specialist which is a mentally ill person who helps out others who are mentally ill. In order to get that job I need two years of not getting hospitalized and staying sober. Miracles can happen though.

Don't feel sorry for me though because some of this I brought on myself.

Have you ever thought of sex work?
It's hard to mess up the cuddling part of it.
(So I hear....I've never tried it.)

 

[Spiderman]

Have you ever thought of sex work?
It's hard to mess up the cuddling part of it.
(So I hear....I've never tried it.)

There are STD's to worry about and last time I had sex, it was a total **** who had a boyfriend, and I was treated for two of them. Also, it's mainly gay men that come on to me, (but I have had a few women come onto me and take me out as well, but they prefer that I stay in the friendship zone usually and the ones that want sex with me, I usually have no attraction to).. Thing is, I could make some money doing gay things but I'm not gay and it would leave me traumatized and self-loathing if I was to do anything gay with a member of the same gender.

 

[Revoltingest]

There are STD's to worry about and last time I had sex, it was a total **** who had a boyfriend, and I was treated for two of them. Also, it's mainly gay men that come on to me, (but I have had a few women come onto me and take me out as well, but they prefer that I stay in the friendship zone usually and the ones that want sex with me, I usually have no attraction to).. Thing is, I could make some money doing gay things but I'm not gay and it would leave me traumatized and self-loathing if I was to do anything gay with a member of the same gender.

How about fast food?
You won't have to work with sharp objects...just hot ones.

 

[Jollybear]

Do you ever do things with the intention of escaping reality.

What will really help me though is getting a job and actually holding it. I have mental health professionals including a vocations specialist who are good at finding mental cases work and they are trying to find me work and I can use them as references.

I stopped working because I screw up at every job. Last job I had was detailing cars. We spent all day vacuuming the inside of the car and washing the outside. We made the car look spotless and someone was coming to buy it. Then I backed the car out of the garage and didn't see a concrete pole, so while turning the vehicle, it scraped the pole causing the mirror and the head light to come off and leaving a big dent. Someone was going to buy the frigging thing and I screwed it up after working on it diligently for hours.

Ever since then, I had a phobia of working. Last time I worked fast food I took a box cutter and stabbed my wrists leaving a trail of blood all over the floor. It actually made me feel better but freaked out my superior. Working has always been very stressful and I find myself extremely distracted living in the past and living in a different world where I can't focus. But miracles are possible.

I eventually want to be a peer support specialist which is a mentally ill person who helps out others who are mentally ill. In order to get that job I need two years of not getting hospitalized and staying sober. Miracles can happen though.

Don't feel sorry for me though because some of this I brought on myself.

I think youd do fine any job you choose to do. Just do it slow and careful. Dont rush. Forget the boss looking over your shoulder. Dont let that rush you. Work at your own pace. Rushing under pressure is what causes the accidents.

I believe you can do it.

 

[Spiderman]

How about fast food?
You won't have to work with sharp objects...just hot ones.

I've had three fast food jobs and all of them were disasters. I couldn't memorize the ingredients to sandwiches and sometimes I gave the wrong person the wrong order. when there is a rush, it becomes very stressful and hard to concentrate. I could operate the deep fat fryer or do dishes though. but when working back line, I've had customers say to the manager we're never going to eat here again because you are slow as molasses.

When working fast food I screw up too much. I'd rather be homeless than work fast food again.

 

[Spiderman]

I think youd do fine any job you choose to do. Just do it slow and careful. Dont rush. Forget the boss looking over your shoulder. Dont let that rush you. Work at your own pace. Rushing under pressure is what causes the accidents.

I believe you can do it.

Thank you

 

[Jollybear]

Thank you

Absolutely. Every manager should give leeway to a new employer cause they need time to learn and get use to the job. There should never be rushing when learning. And even after learning, speed still should be tempered.

 

[ChristineM]

Trust on your mental health team to find you a job you are capable of doing. They know you and they will know what work becomes available.

You had experience in restaurants, perhaps ask them to look for KP work (kitchen porter) for you. Working behind the scenes so no customer involvement.

Good luck.

 

[SalixIncendium]

Do you ever do things with the intention of escaping reality.

What will really help me though is getting a job and actually holding it. I have mental health professionals including a vocations specialist who are good at finding mental cases work and they are trying to find me work and I can use them as references.

I stopped working because I screw up at every job. Last job I had was detailing cars. We spent all day vacuuming the inside of the car and washing the outside. We made the car look spotless and someone was coming to buy it. Then I backed the car out of the garage and didn't see a concrete pole, so while turning the vehicle, it scraped the pole causing the mirror and the head light to come off and leaving a big dent. Someone was going to buy the frigging thing and I screwed it up after working on it diligently for hours.

Ever since then, I had a phobia of working. Last time I worked fast food I took a box cutter and stabbed my wrists leaving a trail of blood all over the floor. It actually made me feel better but freaked out my superior. Working has always been very stressful and I find myself extremely distracted living in the past and living in a different world where I can't focus. But miracles are possible.

I eventually want to be a peer support specialist which is a mentally ill person who helps out others who are mentally ill. In order to get that job I need two years of not getting hospitalized and staying sober. Miracles can happen though.

Don't feel sorry for me though because some of this I brought on myself.

My advice would be to apply to jobs in the retail sector. They tend to be less stressful than fast food (I actually got bored during my tenure in retail) and a bit more social.

Even more social would be the job we discussed yesterday that my friend landed, working in a fitness club. I think one of the benefits is that you would be surrounded by health conscious people and be surrounded by less temptation. So if there are any around you, I would apply to these as well.

 

[SalixIncendium]

I think youd do fine any job you choose to do. Just do it slow and careful. Dont rush. Forget the boss looking over your shoulder. Dont let that rush you. Work at your own pace. Rushing under pressure is what causes the accidents.

While this is a nice sentiment, it's simply not realistic, especially in my line of business. There are jobs out there that some people are more cut out for than others.

 

[Spiderman]

Trust on your mental health team to find you a job you are capable of doing. They know you and they will know what work becomes available.

You had experience in restaurants, perhaps ask them to look for KP work (kitchen porter) for you. Working behind the scenes so no customer involvement.

Good luck.

Great idea

 

[Spiderman]

While this is a nice sentiment, it's simply not realistic, especially in my line of business. There are jobs out there that some people are more cut out for than others.

True

 

[Spiderman]

My advise would be to apply to jobs in the retail sector. They tend to be less stressful than fast food (I actually got bored during my tenure in retail) and a bit more social.

Even more social would be the job we discussed yesterday that my friend landed, working in a fitness club. I think one of the benefits is that you would be surrounded by health conscious people and be surrounded by less temptation. So if there are any around you, I would apply to these as well.

Great advice. I'm sure my forensic ACT team will know very well how to find a job that I can do.

 

[Jollybear]

While this is a nice sentiment, it's simply not realistic, especially in my line of business. There are jobs out there that some people are more cut out for than others.

Explain more? Are you refering to talent?

 

[SalixIncendium]

Explain more? Are you refering to talent?

Yes.

 

[Jumi]

Yeah, people make mistakes even expensive ones. Can't be discouraged though even if you do. heck I'd expect too many people are on the wrong job, it's why they're miserable, but it still beats being unemployed and bored with no money. Of course there's always the outdoors to live in, that is if one is cut out for that...

 

[Spiderman]

Yeah, people make mistakes even expensive ones. Can't be discouraged though even if you do. heck I'd expect too many people are on the wrong job, it's why they're miserable, but it still beats being unemployed and bored with no money. Of course there's always the outdoors to live in, that is if one is cut out for that...

I've lived outdoors and been homeless with no roof over my head when I sleep.

It had its moments where it was peaceful and enjoyable, but some of it was a nightmare, especially when it starts to rain all day.

 

[Jollybear]

Yes.

Ok, yes, i agree talent plays a role. However, everyone can cultivate a skill. But, yes, true, talent plays a role.

Ive done many diverse jobs in my life, and i did alright with all of them. But of course, im gonna be better at some things then other things.

 

[SalixIncendium]

Ok, yes, i agree talent plays a role. However, everyone can cultivate a skill. But, yes, true, talent plays a role.

Ive done many diverse jobs in my life, and i did alright with all of them. But of course, im gonna be better at some things then other things.

Ability plays a role as well. There are people that are simply not cut out for fast food. There are those that either cannot handle the pace or the stress. There are those that cannot work fast and get rattled and break under pressure. There are those that have difficulty memorizing sandwich recipes.

Sure everyone can cultivate a skill, but not everyone has an inherent talent to effectively produce in a career field.