Spiderman
Veteran Member
I've fallen into unbelief in the sense that I do not have the faith that I had.
I don't believe in God or any such spirit being can be contacted by me or has any interest in my life.
It is a miserable hopless place to be and I've been there before. I cannot experience happiness in this agnostic or Deist frame.
Everything has become un interesting and the women I desire are out of my league and would require too much work and change for me to ever get close to.
I cannot figure out what else there is to live for. The days where prayer brought euphoria and I could taste heaven were so happy. My sins or something cut me off from that, and life has become bitter and empty.
I'm telling you, having faith is a much happier place to be. This atheism is hell and a feeling of total separation from God.
Not a damn thing brings me joy anymore. I walk to beautiful places to pray and my prayers are like daggers returning to stab me.
there is simply no reward in religion anymore and now I must make a difficult decision to find reward without a God or religion.
I simply cannot do it.
I don't believe in God or any such spirit being can be contacted by me or has any interest in my life.
It is a miserable hopless place to be and I've been there before. I cannot experience happiness in this agnostic or Deist frame.
Everything has become un interesting and the women I desire are out of my league and would require too much work and change for me to ever get close to.
I cannot figure out what else there is to live for. The days where prayer brought euphoria and I could taste heaven were so happy. My sins or something cut me off from that, and life has become bitter and empty.
I'm telling you, having faith is a much happier place to be. This atheism is hell and a feeling of total separation from God.
Not a damn thing brings me joy anymore. I walk to beautiful places to pray and my prayers are like daggers returning to stab me.
there is simply no reward in religion anymore and now I must make a difficult decision to find reward without a God or religion.
I simply cannot do it.