I thought about this for awhile now the importance of past, present, and future. I've never really considered myself past-oriented as important and was never future oriented. Present is like walking on egg shells and I do that anyhow. Building relationship with deceased family (or just taking my past experiences and things that happen to me to get a feel of what I know is true) has always been, how to say, a calling to me or so have you. One question I do ask since I didn't really have this growing up is what does family mean to me and how do I relate to family.
I've always been a little skeptical of attributing my experiences to anything or anyone. That's where trust comes in.... but anyway. Mostly, how to connect with family, what can they teach me, and things of that nature. I ask my living family as well and my uncle says "well, we're just not a family type of people" and my mother finally can say I love you and at the same time smile as she was never told that herself (and I haven't others likewise).
Learning experience, I guess.