For the benefit of briefly processing what occurred, I am going to journal about my episode of Psychosis, in what detail I remember (which is much more than I'd prefer, or will write out.).
What started out as an ecstatic meditative experience of Unio Mystica with the Earth, and Universe; slowly devolved into Paranoid Delusions, and a severe departure from Reality.
What were casual Synchronicities, built into Sinister plots. My ego divorced from my body, I could only watch as my Mind and Body acted and said things that have never crossed my waking Consciousness, but I remained a passenger to these events, nevertheless. Impending doom and calamity was following me, as I began to feel thag Death was on my trail.
Time became meaningless, I was displaced from it, and yet intimately tied to it. Every choice and every action, contained an unforseen consequence.
As I remained a passenger in my head, over the next few days, the voices started to become louder and more persistent. " I " watched as my Body (Appetites) and Mind (Soul), conversed without me, sometimes even egging me "I" on in various ways. As my paranoia mounted new heights, everything was related and tied together, and everything was out to get me as well. The only thing that would stop it, was for me to Die.
My sanity would sometimes briefly return in the mornings, upon waking, but as I started my day I would lose my grip, and by the time the sun would set I was in panic attack mode.
I have recovered my faculties, after what my Doctors have called a stress induced psychotic episode. But the aftermath of these 5 days will be felt for a very long time to come.
Words of Wisdom: If things aren't adding up, or if they begin to make too much sense, reach out to those you Trust for assistance.
What started out as an ecstatic meditative experience of Unio Mystica with the Earth, and Universe; slowly devolved into Paranoid Delusions, and a severe departure from Reality.
What were casual Synchronicities, built into Sinister plots. My ego divorced from my body, I could only watch as my Mind and Body acted and said things that have never crossed my waking Consciousness, but I remained a passenger to these events, nevertheless. Impending doom and calamity was following me, as I began to feel thag Death was on my trail.
Time became meaningless, I was displaced from it, and yet intimately tied to it. Every choice and every action, contained an unforseen consequence.
As I remained a passenger in my head, over the next few days, the voices started to become louder and more persistent. " I " watched as my Body (Appetites) and Mind (Soul), conversed without me, sometimes even egging me "I" on in various ways. As my paranoia mounted new heights, everything was related and tied together, and everything was out to get me as well. The only thing that would stop it, was for me to Die.
My sanity would sometimes briefly return in the mornings, upon waking, but as I started my day I would lose my grip, and by the time the sun would set I was in panic attack mode.
I have recovered my faculties, after what my Doctors have called a stress induced psychotic episode. But the aftermath of these 5 days will be felt for a very long time to come.
Words of Wisdom: If things aren't adding up, or if they begin to make too much sense, reach out to those you Trust for assistance.