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Stress Induced

Discussion in 'Journals' started by The Hammer, Nov 28, 2020.

  1. The Hammer

    The Hammer White Wolf - kvite ulfh
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    For the benefit of briefly processing what occurred, I am going to journal about my episode of Psychosis, in what detail I remember (which is much more than I'd prefer, or will write out.).

    What started out as an ecstatic meditative experience of Unio Mystica with the Earth, and Universe; slowly devolved into Paranoid Delusions, and a severe departure from Reality.

    What were casual Synchronicities, built into Sinister plots. My ego divorced from my body, I could only watch as my Mind and Body acted and said things that have never crossed my waking Consciousness, but I remained a passenger to these events, nevertheless. Impending doom and calamity was following me, as I began to feel thag Death was on my trail.

    Time became meaningless, I was displaced from it, and yet intimately tied to it. Every choice and every action, contained an unforseen consequence.

    As I remained a passenger in my head, over the next few days, the voices started to become louder and more persistent. " I " watched as my Body (Appetites) and Mind (Soul), conversed without me, sometimes even egging me "I" on in various ways. As my paranoia mounted new heights, everything was related and tied together, and everything was out to get me as well. The only thing that would stop it, was for me to Die.

    My sanity would sometimes briefly return in the mornings, upon waking, but as I started my day I would lose my grip, and by the time the sun would set I was in panic attack mode.

    I have recovered my faculties, after what my Doctors have called a stress induced psychotic episode. But the aftermath of these 5 days will be felt for a very long time to come.

    Words of Wisdom: If things aren't adding up, or if they begin to make too much sense, reach out to those you Trust for assistance.
     
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  2. PureX

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    These things sometimes happen. But we can learn how not to let them own us.

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    Salty Booger Royal Crown Cola (RC)

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    The past is gone, the future has yet to arrive. The present is all we ever have. I have been told that is where we will find our freedom.
     
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    Revoltingest I have the kavorka
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    A welder I sometimes use seems to have flights from reality.
    I discussed this with his father today.
    We're hoping for improvement.
     
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  5. Gargovic Malkav

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    Did this happen recently? Because I was wondering if something had happened to you.
    One day I saw your account username wasn't blue anymore.
    And when I was about to ask what was up on your profile page, I couldn't post it because it seemed you had deactivated your profile.
     
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  6. The Hammer

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    Last week, yeah. The stress of almost losing my wife was nearly unbearable. :(. I am alright now though, and she is doing better.
     
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    I noticed you were gone, too, and I had thought about what was happening with you, and hoped your wife was alright.

    I'm glad she's doing better.
     
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    Im glad everything is better for you two.
    You both need hugs after your ordeals.
     
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  9. The Hammer

    The Hammer White Wolf - kvite ulfh
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    She is doing better, it was very close, but she is ok. We appreciate your concern and support :).
     
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