an anarchist
Your local loco.
My plan B all the way through Z has been to work in the restaurant industry somewhere in a back of the house position.
I've given up plan A, (global domination), so I've been commiting to plan B.
I have an old back injury from my first restaurant job. As a result, my lower/mid back will periodically cramp up intensely. Not helping with matters, I experienced a bout of homelessness at the age of 20, which resulted in me carrying a 100lb+ bag over my back/shoulders in the slouched position while hiking up hill. This resulted in the bending of my upper back, causing more issues and pain.
At three of my previous restaurant jobs, including the one where I gained the injury, I made the decision to ignore the pain and work through it. Bullheaded and ignorant I was. At those three places, me working like usual, disregarding the cramp pains, ended up resulting in my back completely seizing and I would drop to the floor immobilized. I would be in tears because a mixture of the immense pain as well as the embarrassment. All three places I was heavily ridiculed, sometimes before I managed to even get off the floor. I'm a young chap so my back is supposed to cause me no issue. So managers and employees alike hounded me for my back issues and had no sympathy. I earned the nickname "Grandpa" at those three places because I would be waddling around at the speed of a turtle for several weeks if my back ended up completely cramping.
So I've made it very clear to my current managers at my new place of employment that I won't over exert my back. Once I feel it starting to cramp, I tap out. I've been here for almost two years and my lower back was causing me problems when the bosses had me unloading the semi truck every week when I was new. But I told them I couldn't do that anymore and they took me off of truck and my cramps hasn't been an issue. Had muscle relaxers prescribed to me but haven't restocked this year.
But yesterday all of a sudden at the beginning of my shift my back started cramping really bad. That put me on high alert and I left work to go to the store and buy a back brace, which I find helps. I left early that day regardless and had my manager finish my shift. I was just wary. Once I took my brace off, it cramped up hella and the pain was real. All I can do is make sure I don't make any wrong/sudden movements which will cause my back to cramp completely, putting me out of commission for weeks.
I went to work today but left after an hour on account of my back. Last few times where it's gotten bad but not to where I'm immobilized, I've learned to take it easy for a couple of weeks and the back will eventually loosen up and back to normal.
But now I'm scared. In all my plans, I am always working with the assumption that I will have a back that supports me. What if I can't count on my back? I don't know what I could do. I need a proper back to work in a restaurant. Like, how it is right now, I have to get up from bed/chairs with the utmost care in order not to strain my back / cause pain. I've been immobilized at past jobs before even when I'm taking it relatively slow because I hadn't learnt the hard way yet that twisting my body even a little bit will cause the whole back to cramp.
I can't work jobs in customer service. Got bad social anxiety, I could not handle working with the public non stop all day. I've tried before I am not cut out for it. I've done a couple calls center jobs but those are awful. But I get to sit down all day in a cushioned chair. So maybe that's plan C idk.
I am in the thick of my pain, so I'm tripping out worried that the cramps won't subside in a reasonable amount of time or will happen more frequently. If that becomes the case, I don't think I can work in restaurants.
Christ, does anyone have any advice? All I can think of is to do stretches for my back and get those muscle relaxers prescribed again and hope it helps.
I've given up plan A, (global domination), so I've been commiting to plan B.
I have an old back injury from my first restaurant job. As a result, my lower/mid back will periodically cramp up intensely. Not helping with matters, I experienced a bout of homelessness at the age of 20, which resulted in me carrying a 100lb+ bag over my back/shoulders in the slouched position while hiking up hill. This resulted in the bending of my upper back, causing more issues and pain.
At three of my previous restaurant jobs, including the one where I gained the injury, I made the decision to ignore the pain and work through it. Bullheaded and ignorant I was. At those three places, me working like usual, disregarding the cramp pains, ended up resulting in my back completely seizing and I would drop to the floor immobilized. I would be in tears because a mixture of the immense pain as well as the embarrassment. All three places I was heavily ridiculed, sometimes before I managed to even get off the floor. I'm a young chap so my back is supposed to cause me no issue. So managers and employees alike hounded me for my back issues and had no sympathy. I earned the nickname "Grandpa" at those three places because I would be waddling around at the speed of a turtle for several weeks if my back ended up completely cramping.
So I've made it very clear to my current managers at my new place of employment that I won't over exert my back. Once I feel it starting to cramp, I tap out. I've been here for almost two years and my lower back was causing me problems when the bosses had me unloading the semi truck every week when I was new. But I told them I couldn't do that anymore and they took me off of truck and my cramps hasn't been an issue. Had muscle relaxers prescribed to me but haven't restocked this year.
But yesterday all of a sudden at the beginning of my shift my back started cramping really bad. That put me on high alert and I left work to go to the store and buy a back brace, which I find helps. I left early that day regardless and had my manager finish my shift. I was just wary. Once I took my brace off, it cramped up hella and the pain was real. All I can do is make sure I don't make any wrong/sudden movements which will cause my back to cramp completely, putting me out of commission for weeks.
I went to work today but left after an hour on account of my back. Last few times where it's gotten bad but not to where I'm immobilized, I've learned to take it easy for a couple of weeks and the back will eventually loosen up and back to normal.
But now I'm scared. In all my plans, I am always working with the assumption that I will have a back that supports me. What if I can't count on my back? I don't know what I could do. I need a proper back to work in a restaurant. Like, how it is right now, I have to get up from bed/chairs with the utmost care in order not to strain my back / cause pain. I've been immobilized at past jobs before even when I'm taking it relatively slow because I hadn't learnt the hard way yet that twisting my body even a little bit will cause the whole back to cramp.
I can't work jobs in customer service. Got bad social anxiety, I could not handle working with the public non stop all day. I've tried before I am not cut out for it. I've done a couple calls center jobs but those are awful. But I get to sit down all day in a cushioned chair. So maybe that's plan C idk.
I am in the thick of my pain, so I'm tripping out worried that the cramps won't subside in a reasonable amount of time or will happen more frequently. If that becomes the case, I don't think I can work in restaurants.
Christ, does anyone have any advice? All I can think of is to do stretches for my back and get those muscle relaxers prescribed again and hope it helps.