Now Feb 27 - what a week - email to Lori? - may paste in .... plus interesting sites to gang plus "True confessions of a recovering ego-maniac"
Here is the email - an might be a reasonable intro to my book -
For Lori email1!!
My 35-year journey through schizophrenia
Hi Lori - make links clickable!!
I am a HUGE fan of your site - congratulations on what you have done with it - I have found many useful articles & much wisdom from a variety of people!
I live in Australia and it's hot down here at the moment.
I had a quick look around your site and was wondering if you have had "life stories" of anyone who has been diagnosed with schizophrenia.
Schizophrenia is regarded as a very serious psychiatric disorder experienced by about one percent of the human population.
I was diagnossed way back in 1983 and it has been a memorable journey so far and I continue to grow and evolve.
There are many views about schizophrenia and how to help those who suffer with it. If you search the web for -
Spiritual emergency schizophrenia
You turn up some interesting sites.
I have been "to Hell and back" so many times over the course of the past 35 years of psychotic experiences. It is a miracle I am still here and I still have MOST of my marbles
The experience of schizophrenia has been a metamorphosis for me and I am not the only one.
I used to be as angry & cynical as anyone who has ever walked on this planet. I figured that would never change but somehow my instincts prompted me to meditate and find some relief from the painful, judgemental thoughts that I wrestled with on a regular basis.
I am now have been transformed and I try to see the Divine in every human being no matter how "obnoxious" they may be.
I have written a book about my experiences - well - I am still editing it at the moment.
Here are a few examples of what I have "learned" through my various experiences -
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I really do believe we are all born with the same potential to experience unconditional love - we just haven't figured out the best way to help everyone experience their potential. Many souls are hard at work trying to wake us all up from our slumber.
I try to laugh at all the hilarious antics of my ego - it really is a situation-comedy but for most of the past 35 years or more, I couldn't see the funny side of it at all.
My instincts have guided me through a series of nightmarish experiences that I still cannot believe I have made it "out" and am feeling the way I do.
Unfortunately many people with schizophrenia aren't so fortunate and they end up hospitalised or worse. I have had enormous support from my family - I must have done something nice in a previous life to have received such help when I really needed it!
More? - from memory ... argh!
I only hope to help people through my writing - if I can totally transform my massive ego there must be hope for everyone ...
If you or your readers are interested I can email you several sites that give a different picture of schizophrenia that conventional psychiatric wisdom. Schizophrenia may just be one of the most mis-understood phenomena in the world.
One is simply called "Successful schizophrenia".
Here is one of their pages -
Messages, Insights and Wisdom from "Psychiatric Survivors" -
Messages, Insights and Wisdom: Archives
Schizophrenia awakening mind?
I just hope to help people find the courage to battle their inner demons. I was as lost as any soul could ever be ... or imagine themselves to be ...
Schizophrenia at its worst can be absolutely terrifying experience! Mine sure was!
I really wrestled with the question of whether to include some of the darkest thoughts I had about my life & humanity in general. I was often very angry and wanted other people to suffer as much as me. The language in places is very cynical and very harsh in its criticism of people and their flaws ...
In the end I did include some of the worst things that occupied my mind - I guess it is one more example of how-low-you-can-go and still bounce back better than ever!
Here is a poem I wrote many years ago that may give readers some inkling as to what the experience is like -
Schizophrenia
I used to walk down the street
And scream at everyone I meet
So they locked me away
From the world ev'ry day
I crawled through the walls
So they showed me some normals
They strangled my mind
To help me unwind
I used to think I was a robot from outer space
With wires in my head and a little plastic face
I used to believe that I had such magic powers
Which I would gladly practice for many hours
I used to think ants were crawling on my brain
I stared at the world and only saw the pain
I used to see monsters and ghosts everywhere
I stayed inside and I continued the stare
I am a human experimental life-form
My blood flows backwards to keep me warm
People ask me if I can save the world
I tell them to leave all the flags unfurled
People ask me about my frozen lifetime
I tell them their world has no reason or rhyme
There is a very "special" version of this poem which has quite a few more verses ... but we don't want this email to get much longer
I have written over 200 poems (since having a spontaneous & totally unexpected "spiritual awakening" on a psych ward - there's a poem about that as well
- some are more light-hearted than others. If you or your readers want a copy just email me - it would be my pleasure.
Send her the interesting sites - why not - I have a million more where they came from
PLUS I DO NOT think I have ever seen an article about ascension symptoms! --->
Symptoms of Awakening • The Awakened State is a doozy!
Also ascension symptoms mood swings!
********* Include my email if people want a copy of my "book" - as is ...
ATTACH interesting sites?