Spiderman
Veteran Member
It is not healthy that a woman I asked to marry me, who I haven't talked to for years, who I jumped off a building over, who I went to jail over, still occupies an enormous percentage of my thoughts each day, possibly for the rest of my life.
Most of my thoughts about her are that I hope she heals from the damage I did, I hope she doesn't go through this again, I hope and pray that she becomes a virtuous Angelic Saintly woman, or rather, I hope she finds happiness and makes good choices and has a bright future.
But every day I still feel there were many signs that she was the woman I was called to have matrimony (marriage) with.
I feel strongly she was the one, and there is an unbreakable bond, we are connected, and I am reminded of her from the pain of the broken bones, as well as Psychological pain, every day for the rest of my life.
I think about her pain too.
Trying to remove this woman from my mind is like trying to get urine out of a swimming pool. How do you get urine out of swimming pool water if you don't get any new water to work with??
The swimming pool is my brain and my soul in this analogy.
Most of my thoughts about her are that I hope she heals from the damage I did, I hope she doesn't go through this again, I hope and pray that she becomes a virtuous Angelic Saintly woman, or rather, I hope she finds happiness and makes good choices and has a bright future.
But every day I still feel there were many signs that she was the woman I was called to have matrimony (marriage) with.
I feel strongly she was the one, and there is an unbreakable bond, we are connected, and I am reminded of her from the pain of the broken bones, as well as Psychological pain, every day for the rest of my life.
I think about her pain too.
Trying to remove this woman from my mind is like trying to get urine out of a swimming pool. How do you get urine out of swimming pool water if you don't get any new water to work with??
The swimming pool is my brain and my soul in this analogy.