Spiderman
Veteran Member
I'm sorry. I need to vent some times. I'm suicidal a lot. So, it comes out every few months.I'm sorry you are not feeling well. It sucks. But sometimes things can get better? Spring is on the way. What about tiny sprouts of old plants starting to poke little green spikes through the finally thawed ground?
What about little birdies who have flown thousands of miles to be in the brief sunshine?
Is that worth living for to see?
Can you get outside and outside of yourself?
I feel like you say this same thing every year. Can you just live with these feelings? It seems like you can
But I have lots of things to say at this forum that are positive too, or at least not negative.
Yes, I love spring and summer, and am far more happy then, than I am during winter.
But I kind of consistently feel I'm ready to get diagnosed with cancer, and have no responsibilities, but to prepare for death
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Life has enormous beauty. I love Capitol Hill, the cathedral , shrines honoring deceased heroes nearby. I have had great experiences with the supernatural and spirits, Angels, and God, or what appears to be them, paranormal supernatural activity. But maybe I'm just crazy like people say, and delusional.
I'm very grateful for it. But life involves a chronic pain, sorrow, aches, responsibilities, change, loss, poverty, weakness, disappointment, temptations, anger, annoyances, and agony, I just don't want to deal with.
I would much rather be dead!
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