SalamNeither of these are necessary for true belief and peace, friend. Serenity can be found within.
You know today in Salah, I had a moment, for once, been a long time, I totally forgot about myself when thinking saying verse 1:3. I was immersed in my thought about God's compassion and mercy without any "adoration" of myself. Then Satan quickly ruined that, and got me adoring myself "adoring God", so adoring myself adoring God and made me think about myself and then to "not adore myself", I began to recall sins I've done. I began to struggle between "focusing on God" and "focusing on me", by the end of Salah when saying "peace be upon you O you who is the Prophet", I barely was able to even focus on Mohammad (s).
But I can tell you that without God, I would hate existing.
I think without God, I can't stand myself to be honest. I think anyone who knows me would agree that I'm not that much fun to be with nor interesting nor admirable nor anything really.
The only thing I enjoy these days really is Quran and words of Ahlulbayt (a) (ziyarats, hadiths, Du'as/supplications/prayers they taught, etc).
I don't even enjoy food no matter what. I can go to a super expensive restaurant and won't enjoy it. Fast food same. BBQ homemade food don't enjoy.
Ice-cream I had yesterday just for the sake of my nephew and niece, and I finished it without noticing it's taste.
There's nothing in life for me that gives me peace. I don't enjoy video games anymore nor anything anymore. Without God, there's nothing for me at all.
I'm going to complete my degree (1 year left), but I don't do it to acquire luxury that won't mean anything for me. I do it for the sake of God. God knows my intention is that I offer something, leave something good for his creation, help his creation someway for his sake, so that I return close proximity to God and have a high station in his view, and have a good relationship with him.
Take that away, and I would've long ago committed suicide.