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My religious journey so far

Discussion in 'Interfaith Discussion' started by RayofLight, Apr 7, 2021 at 1:12 AM.

  1. RayofLight

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    So I thought I would share my religious journey with y'all. I'll break it down.

    First off I was raised Christian. A very messed up form of Christianity that even Christians would be like "that's wrong". I won't get into the details but the church was sexist, racist and lgbtphobic. I started questioning things because I realized I was trans. And according to the form of Christianity I was taught that was wrong. People told me I would go to hell for it. I even attempted suicide. So I begun to read the Bible. And I reread it. I begun to question even more. God seemed so cruel. The concept of hell bothered me. Why would God send anyone there when it was his fault Adam and Eve ate the fruit? Why didn't he want them to eat it? Did he just want blind obedience? I really wanted to hold onto Christianity tho so I put these questions aside. The problem was the more I read the more I couldnt vibe with it. The version of Christianity I was taught was everyone outside of it was unhappy. But I noticed many of my nonchristian friends were happy sometimes happier then me. I became a nondenominational Christian.

    Eventually I became a Christian Quaker joined RF to find out more. Again. Questions plagued me. I could no longer ignore them. I begun to wonder why didn't I just let go of the concept of hell and sin altogether? Why should I try so hard to hold onto beliefs such as these? But then I'd no longer be Christian and risk damnation. So again searched the scriptures for answers...I begin researching other religions such as judaism, paganism, islam, etc. I found that Christianity seemed less likely to be true.
    I got more intrigued by the occult and by paganism. At first I would try to mix Christianity with paganism. Then I realized I was only doing so outta comfort. I did not believe in christianity. So I let go of Christianity entirely. I started worshipping Hecate. She eventually would decide she didn't want me worshipping her so I would stop. I now worship Loki, Sigyn,Angrboda and Hel. I do not however work with any of them as I do not feel prepared enough in knoweldge to do so. I feel really connected to nature. Paganism is perfect for me and I am much happier practicing it. Recently Ive started researching Satanism and Luciferianism and find both really interest me. I feel perhaps mixing some paganism with theistic Satanism or luciferianism may be nice. I do not know yet tho. I do not wish to rebel against christianity. I just want to find and pursue knowledge where ever I can. If that means from a left handed path so be it. I just want to improve myself constantly and better who I am. I'll go where ever my path leads me.
     
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  2. Trailblazer

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    I think you have a great attitude and approach. I am on a similar journey. Although I have a religion I am certain of I will always be seeking more knowledge and try to better myself.
     
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  3. RayofLight

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    Self improvement is always a good thing and so is knowledge.
     
    #3 RayofLight, Apr 7, 2021 at 1:43 AM
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    New development- I am thinking of setting up an altar to Lucifer. I'll have to see what offerings would work.
     
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    ChristineM "Be strong" I whispered to my coffee.
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    A person has to do what a person has to do. Maybe you will find what you feel you need, maybe you won't. One thing is sure, you'll never find it if you don't look.
     
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    True indeed. In my opinion truth and knowledge is always waiting to be found where ever you look.
     
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    ChristineM "Be strong" I whispered to my coffee.
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    Maybe not a good idea living in a home. It may offend some of the staff.
     
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    They know I am a pagan. And I could not care less if I offend them
     
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    ChristineM "Be strong" I whispered to my coffee.
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    All good then
     
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    My open is that it shouldnt offend them and if it does thats their problem. I don't get offended with by their beliefs. If they truly want religious freedom for all then they have to know that includes my beliefs.
     
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    Interesting journey. LGBT people are often forced away from their religions and since it is part of their community it can be a very painful process.

    I just have to state for the record that it is "I could not care less. Your phrasing has offended me:mad::mad:

    Seriously, I wish you the best and do not forget that you have friends and support here.
     
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    Thank you for your kind words. Also edited phrasing
     
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    LOL! No need, but thank you. You made my day.

    You might have noticed that I do like to lighten the mood at times.
     
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    I have and quite enjoy it.
     
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    What you said reminded me of this quote. :)

    “If a man were to declare, ‘There is a lamp in the next room which gives no light’, one hearer might be satisfied with his report, but a wiser man goes into the room to judge for himself, and behold, when he finds the light shining brilliantly in the lamp, he knows the truth!” Paris Talks, p. 103
     
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