From an atheist perspective it seems you've put a lot of effort in avoiding cognitive dissonance. With religion one gives authority to a source, maybe it's the bible, a pastor or maybe their emotional rationalizations upon reflection of what they've read or heard. When that authority clashes with previously believed ideas the mind cannot comfortably hold two contradictory items simultaneously. It then comes down to what one values as to how they resolve the dissonance. I might have been like you some time ago but there came a point that I began to value what I can know and also be able to justify those things to anyone who asked my reasons. I can demonstrate the things I believe to be true; not with 100% certainty but with a high degree of confidence. For example, someone tells me they believe Jesus rose from the dead...I ask why? What sufficient evidence was given to you that cannot be given to me? Do you really have a low threshold for empirical evidence and if so why is that low threshold not present in all other aspects of your life? This type of incongruency was demystified when I realized that most people were indoctrinated into believing religious things. They were told to believe these things well before they had the cognitive tools to question anything. They were told these things by people that loved them and had no reason to lie or deceive them. When you read this what fires first? Your emotions or intellect?
I was essentially just paraphrasing what was written -attempting to explain it in more plain terms.
I probably have experienced more evidences than most to support what I believe -and can honestly say my beliefs came more by evidences, as my intellect tends to fire first.
I definitely believe we
can know some things generally before we can prove that we know them -that the processes of our minds are sometimes beyond our understanding -similar to our minds being able to make the calculations necessary to throw a football at a moving target while we could not consciously duplicate the math. However, I do like to show the work as it were when it comes to core beliefs.
Meanwhile, I categorize things as accurately as possible based on what they are -hearsay, personal experience, possible, impossible, likely, unlikely, etc.. and make decisions from there. What else can we do except ignore the facts or lack thereof?
Assuming the accounts given in the bible are accurate, some had direct evidence of Christ being raised from the dead. They experienced what I call an unusual arrangement of common things -which can not easily be reproduced.
The etch-a-sketch of history is erased by the new state of things, and we can only hope to have an accurate account of previous states.
We will never see Christ raised from the dead in the past -because the past will not be again. However, when we -if we are present -have the evidence of him standing in power and glory on the earth -assuming the government of the earth after putting down those forces which attempt to fight him at his return -then being ever-present -then we will certainly have reason to take the account of his resurrection more seriously.
When I read something like that, I take it for what it is, and add it to everything else. I did not witness it, I cannot reproduce it, I cannot prove it -but I do believe it based on many other things of a more direct nature.
I actually scoffed at many religious teachings initially.
There is nothing wrong with not believing what you honestly do not or cannot believe at the time. There certainly is, however, danger in believing things without any evidence -and acting upon false ideas (or doing that which you truly know is wrong by its nature.)
Many are confused about true faith in that regard. True faith is the SUBSTANCE of things hoped for -the EVIDENCE of things not seen.
1Th 5:21 Prove all things; hold fast that which is good.
Even "doubting Thomas" had seen many evidences which should have given him reason not to completely doubt the other apostles when they said they saw Christ raised from the dead -but Christ really did not scold him, either.
Joh 20:27 Then saith he to Thomas, Reach hither thy finger, and behold my hands; and reach hither thy hand, and thrust it into my side:
and be not faithless, but believing.
He simply said that those who believed yet had not seen were blessed....
Joh 20:29 Jesus saith unto him, Thomas, because thou hast seen me, thou hast believed: blessed are they that have not seen, and yet have believed.
....but that is not the same as saying those who have not seen should believe without any evidence whatsoever. They are those who are blessed with other evidences.
I consider myself blessed because I have experienced evidences which cause me to believe Christ rose from the dead -some of which is personal experience of evidences, some of which is reasoning/modeling, if you will -based on those evidences.
I was not present when Christ rose from the dead -and that is all that one not present can do. However, the evidences I have experienced I cannot reproduce for you -except to say that if you draw near to God, he will draw near to you, as written, and you will also have evidences. You can reproduce the circumstances which will make it more likely for God to show you evidences.
Consider how much of what you "know" that you really "know". How many non-religious things do you believe that you did not actually witness, can not reproduce and cannot prove?
Some basic facts remain regardless of the state of everything -and some things are more permanent than others, but the state and arrangement of everything is constantly changing.
It is good to have as many facts as possible in order to make better decisions, but we still have to make many decisions all day long with incomplete data. We act on a general idea of the past, present and future states of things -which is incomplete and usually inaccurate. Still, we can usually know enough to get by and even do well.
Science is an excellent tool, but if we wait for all of the facts, we would not move forward. As we move forward, we gain more understanding, more facts, more evidence.
With religion, my basic core beliefs are the commandments -because I can prove absolutely that they are good, and would produce universal good if kept universally.
Even if one does not believe in God, the principles behind even the first few commandments concerning how to begin to relate to God are sound in respect to whatever was before us.
It should be respected for what it is. It should not be taken in vain. It should be the reference for all actions, etc....
I do believe in the God referred to specifically by the commandments -and have gained enough evidence by reason and experience to support the beliefs that God exists -that he wills that I rest on the seventh day specifically, etc.
As for why evidences are given to some and not to others -it is just a matter of time and order -as with all other things.
1Co 15:22 For as in Adam all die, even so in Christ shall all be made alive.
1Co 15:23
But every man in his own order: Christ the firstfruits; afterward they that are Christ's at his coming.
1Co 15:24 Then cometh the end, when he shall have delivered up the kingdom to God, even the Father; when he shall have put down all rule and all authority and power.
1Co 15:25 For he must reign, till he hath put all enemies under his feet.
1Co 15:26 The last enemy that shall be destroyed is death.
God actually keeps things from people until it is time for them to understand....
Luk 8:10 And he said, Unto you it is given to know the mysteries of the kingdom of God: but to others in parables; that seeing they might not see, and hearing they might not understand.