Welcome. You sound like an interesting soul. I look forward to some conversations with you. I too am a former fundi. Its tendrils of fear take a long time to break free from. Have you ever done any qigong and taiji practices alongside your yoga?I'm looking for a place where I can find those of like mind. I classify myself as eclectic because I've been exposed to a number of beliefs. At one time I was a fundamentalist Christian, was agnostic for a while and later moved onto New Age. I'm a writer and wrote and published a book with characters who multicultural/multi-religious. I expanded on what I'd learned in college on the subject and researched it. My best source was The World's Religions by Huston Smith. I am comforted by a daily quote I get from Daily Dharma. I'm into yoga. At present I'm into quantum entanglement, other dimensions as they relate to the afterlife. The novel about that will be published in probably Feb or March. I've been through a lot of difficult experiences and all of them have taught me so much. I was devastated by them and am grateful for what I learned. I look forward to exploring this site, as I learn the ins and outs. I have published numerous books, but I am not here to sell them. A writer/artist is who I am.