Here's a tough question for you:
If your spouse abuses you and/or your children, are you still bound by your marriage vows? Specifically:
(1) Must you still keep your spouse forever? Why or why not?
(2) Must you still forgo all others besides your spouse? Why or why not?
(3) When does a marriage end?
I think for someone to know what love really means, they must first love themselves. If they have that relationship then firmly in place, they know what they'll tolerate when someone else claims to love them and what they won't. Love doesn't leave bruises. Love doesn't cause someone to tremble with fear. Love doesn't bring excruciating pain, tears and gut clenching terror at the mere sound of a lovers voice. Love doesn't make someone ask, if I'm physically abused is that love? Love knows the answer already, because true love nurtures, cherishes, comforts, hugs, soothes, laughs with not at, and blossoms new blooms that make love grow stronger. Instead of choking vines of regret, shame, fear, pain,that makes it die slowly and in agonizing sense of solitude.
I can tell you from personal experience that vows that ask you to commit yourself till death us do part, can feel very do-able when it's all good. When forever doesn't seem long enough. And I can tell you that when that all changes, due to abuse of any kind, that then those vows mean quite something else indeed. Because in a bad marriage, there are many ways to die. There's a saying that goes, if you're strong enough to find reason to stay, you're strong enough to reason leaving. Love yourself enough to stop being someone elses target. While you're living the role model of what a woman and a man look like in a dysfunctional relationship, your precious children are imprinting and taking note. And you stand to teach them that's what love looks like. Leave, when it hurts and don't ever go back. Because all those pleadings that say, I'm sorry! I won't do it again, are lies!
Because if they were sorry and they won't do it again, they wouldn't have had it in them in the first place to be a sorry pathetic abuser, who now has to beg you to agree to be their victim again, so they can return to what they can never change. And that is who they are. It is not your fault! It never was. When we meet someone we bring to the relationship who we were long before we saw their face. All our baggage, all our good and all our bad. We bring who we are. And who an abuser is, is what was cultivated to be so long before they found their next victim. You're not the first! Only you can love yourself enough to insure you are the last. The last time they'll have a chance to bring you pain. The last time they'll show your children that love screams. Get out, while you're alive.
Because the cemeteries are full of victims who thought they could change that one that put them there. Otherwise, while you're wasting your time and giving your life and peace of mind to pain, suffering and terrorism, the one you deserve and that's been looking for you all their life, will never get the chance to prove what true love is. God didn't make you to be someone's punching bag. You're a temple of the most high. Don't hold to man's words that make you vow to take the hits, when anyone who valued vows wouldn't strike you in the first place. Love yourself enough not to suffer. (Gentle hug) I wish you strength, peace and sanctuary.