Riders
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I finally found a lady counselor who seems to be pretty good.I get to see her once a week. Shes 73 and single living alone. So shes kind of womans rights person female positive which is good this what I need. But its like I told her about my Mom beating my Dad up in her alcoholic days verbally abusing him for years, him being quite wimpy and distant with us growing up.
He let my Mom be dominant more or less. She said there is no way either me or any of my sisters could get out of that with out being male dependant , codependant on men.
But sometimes I think counseling is useless because I know she wants to show me how not to need men and all. But the Big Book of AA says it takes years for the effect of dependency on alcohol to me;t away. Dr. Bob took 2 or 3 years before he quit lusting and looking for alcoholic after he quit, and some people take 10 years before the obsession is gone.'
I was just thinking when I was with my counselor yea right lady you don't know how dependent on men I am. I don't have to be acting bad with sex or be sexual or go church at a cult that makes women go by a sexually restrictive dress code to be dependent.
I can be at the grocery store and ask for help from my managers and talk to men there and be dependent on men,I can watch a movie about women being dependent on men and feel my dependency so it doesn't take people...........
He let my Mom be dominant more or less. She said there is no way either me or any of my sisters could get out of that with out being male dependant , codependant on men.
But sometimes I think counseling is useless because I know she wants to show me how not to need men and all. But the Big Book of AA says it takes years for the effect of dependency on alcohol to me;t away. Dr. Bob took 2 or 3 years before he quit lusting and looking for alcoholic after he quit, and some people take 10 years before the obsession is gone.'
I was just thinking when I was with my counselor yea right lady you don't know how dependent on men I am. I don't have to be acting bad with sex or be sexual or go church at a cult that makes women go by a sexually restrictive dress code to be dependent.
I can be at the grocery store and ask for help from my managers and talk to men there and be dependent on men,I can watch a movie about women being dependent on men and feel my dependency so it doesn't take people...........