RedDragon94
Love everyone, meditate often
Hey RF folks, it's RD94.
It's hard to put into words what I want to say. I have really appreciated the candor, intellectual stimulus, and truth seeking of each and every one of you. I can't tell you how that has made me grow as a person of faith/skepticism. I have gotten angry before, but that was only because I was probably more frustrated at myself than at any of you. I desire to be a person of empathy and compassion to others, sometimes I fail.
I feel like in the real world I've found somebody, oddly enough it's not Jesus. It's actually somebody I sort of worked for/with/might be working with again. She is so d*** strong it makes me want to be a better person. I find myself trying to do more for my parents, exercise more, and when I found out she was actually from a place outside the United States, I tried and am trying to learn her native language. Funny thing, I don't even know if she likes me back or if she's blowing some other guy off or what. F****n corona virus. I hope one day I get to date her at least. If not, she's worth supporting anyway no matter what she chooses. I really hope I'm not under some type of spell or something. That would suck.
Now, the reason why I might be leaving. As you all know probably or have guessed, as a 25 year old guy I really have a thing for, well, porn. I'll just say it. Today I was doing it and I just felt so f***** guilty because the person on the screen did not look like the person I described above. I mean, I felt really dirty. I want to stop doing the porn side of things. In order to do that I need to quit being on this and other social networking websites. It's just pointless I think sometimes.
I love you guys and I don't even know any of you personally. Always remember, one world, one human race. And remember that God is within and without us. I still don't know who I am spiritually and for the most part, I'm okay with it. Again thanks.
~W.H.
I'll leave you with a song. I feel funny doing this, but here it is.
It's hard to put into words what I want to say. I have really appreciated the candor, intellectual stimulus, and truth seeking of each and every one of you. I can't tell you how that has made me grow as a person of faith/skepticism. I have gotten angry before, but that was only because I was probably more frustrated at myself than at any of you. I desire to be a person of empathy and compassion to others, sometimes I fail.
I feel like in the real world I've found somebody, oddly enough it's not Jesus. It's actually somebody I sort of worked for/with/might be working with again. She is so d*** strong it makes me want to be a better person. I find myself trying to do more for my parents, exercise more, and when I found out she was actually from a place outside the United States, I tried and am trying to learn her native language. Funny thing, I don't even know if she likes me back or if she's blowing some other guy off or what. F****n corona virus. I hope one day I get to date her at least. If not, she's worth supporting anyway no matter what she chooses. I really hope I'm not under some type of spell or something. That would suck.
Now, the reason why I might be leaving. As you all know probably or have guessed, as a 25 year old guy I really have a thing for, well, porn. I'll just say it. Today I was doing it and I just felt so f***** guilty because the person on the screen did not look like the person I described above. I mean, I felt really dirty. I want to stop doing the porn side of things. In order to do that I need to quit being on this and other social networking websites. It's just pointless I think sometimes.
I love you guys and I don't even know any of you personally. Always remember, one world, one human race. And remember that God is within and without us. I still don't know who I am spiritually and for the most part, I'm okay with it. Again thanks.
~W.H.
I'll leave you with a song. I feel funny doing this, but here it is.