janesix
Active Member
I am an arrogant, unlikeable jerk. I thought for a long time that I was going through a "spiritual awakening" and I thought I was becoming a better person.
Now I think I realize that I am not changing, not going to change either. That I will remain a jerk. That it is just my responsibility to not BEHAVE like one, as far as I can.
I guess I was lazy, and wanted God's grace of changing me and making me a better person. But people are jerks, for the most part. It is a daily, hourly, minutely choice ALL THE TIME to choose whether to act on my true nature.
Now I think I realize that I am not changing, not going to change either. That I will remain a jerk. That it is just my responsibility to not BEHAVE like one, as far as I can.
I guess I was lazy, and wanted God's grace of changing me and making me a better person. But people are jerks, for the most part. It is a daily, hourly, minutely choice ALL THE TIME to choose whether to act on my true nature.