Maija
Active Member
Hello friends,
I am back!
There are MANY familiar names still here, I would name then and recognize the beautiful souls, but I fear I would miss some on accident and potentially cause insult.
It is also OK if some of you don't remember me.
My search for God started out deeply religion oriented, fairly safe within the threshold of Abrahamic religions, raised Catholic, converted to Islam and practiced and identified as a Muslim for about 9 years, came back to the church. However, the last 4 years I've been so drawn to Krishna and Vaishnavism, most of the friends that I have are Gaudiya Vaishnavas and so that is most familiar. I recently read about Ekasarana Dharma and that seemed really beautiful too.
More recently things were a little hectic in life and I felt Krishna drawing me near. I try to keep a prayerful attitude during such times, open to whatever way God will reveal Himself to me and each time Krishna's name was of comfort. For months on my lunch break I would run to the car, take a breather and say His name and feel I was not alone. As I said my search at first was very religious and rule oriented, from a Christian upbringing, I wanted to avoid any pain in the afterlife. However, I had to trust God eventually. I had to trust that, like a parent/father/mother who hears their child crying out for them, in such a state of neediness and vulnerability, God wouldn't mislead that child towards danger or something impure.
So, I finally had to put my guard down. Doing so has taught me much about how culturally we pray. I've stopped advising God as much and started aiming for a friendship where I just listen to Him and enjoy the holy name/s.
The results have been great in my personal life, I am so grateful and very happy for the presence of good people in my life and wise souls. I have come here again to learn more.
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I am back!
There are MANY familiar names still here, I would name then and recognize the beautiful souls, but I fear I would miss some on accident and potentially cause insult. It is also OK if some of you don't remember me
. My search for God started out deeply religion oriented, fairly safe within the threshold of Abrahamic religions, raised Catholic, converted to Islam and practiced and identified as a Muslim for about 9 years, came back to the church. However, the last 4 years I've been so drawn to Krishna and Vaishnavism, most of the friends that I have are Gaudiya Vaishnavas and so that is most familiar. I recently read about Ekasarana Dharma and that seemed really beautiful too.
More recently things were a little hectic in life and I felt Krishna drawing me near. I try to keep a prayerful attitude during such times, open to whatever way God will reveal Himself to me and each time Krishna's name was of comfort. For months on my lunch break I would run to the car, take a breather and say His name and feel I was not alone. As I said my search at first was very religious and rule oriented, from a Christian upbringing, I wanted to avoid any pain in the afterlife. However, I had to trust God eventually. I had to trust that, like a parent/father/mother who hears their child crying out for them, in such a state of neediness and vulnerability, God wouldn't mislead that child towards danger or something impure.
So, I finally had to put my guard down. Doing so has taught me much about how culturally we pray. I've stopped advising God as much and started aiming for a friendship where I just listen to Him and enjoy the holy name/s.
The results have been great in my personal life, I am so grateful and very happy for the presence of good people in my life and wise souls. I have come here again to learn more.
m
