I am new to faith. Left it late in life to start my journey. To cut along story short I am a 52 year old recovering alcoholic. Actively engaged in the AA 12 step program. For those familiar with the program , reliance on a "High Power" or at the very least acknowledgment that we need help from such is a key part o the program. Having had no faith or religious inclination I clung to the program itself as my higher power but the longer I am in the program the closer I am drawn to Jesus. So my journey begins. I live one day at a time and pray every day that I may have the strength to make it to tomorrow sober. One of the issues I am seeking help in is finding a church I feel comfortable with..i had always dismissed religion because of conflict with my social views on equality in marriage, abortion, sexuality etc. I realised though that dismissing the whole message because of being uneasy on certain issues did me no good, I accept Jesus as my saviour and wish to live my lift in His service
Good on you for seeking help, Mark. It's a tough addiction to break, but one that seems to have a common base with all who seek it as an escape from an unbearable reality. Relief from those 'inner demons', some of which can be very difficult to confront, is all too easy with alcohol, but the sting in the tail is a killer.
I have yet to meet an alcoholic who was not a self-medicating depressive. You just chose the wrong 'medicine'.
One of my dearest friends is a recovering alcoholic and she has been battling her demons for over 60 years......still day to day. But an awful family history that completely demolished her self esteem, still resurfaces to bring back the bad memories and send her mind into a blind panic. Through AA she is able to keep her battle ongoing. The disease is little understood by people in general who just see drunks as bad people......I know they aren't. They are just ordinary people who need help, not judgment.
I hope you can gain the strength to conquer the problems that led you to alcohol in the first place. Is there an inherited factor in your case? A good psychologist is also recommended to get to the bottom of the deeper things.
All the best with the programme......and finding your Higher Power.