Are you accepting life as it is? Or are you fighting it to make it better?
Do you really want to know? I just told my friend Duane (Truthseeker9) in a private Conversation we have going but I won't repeat all of that here because I am not proud of it.
No, I do not accept my life as it is right now and I have no hope that it will ever change. I have no free will to change my life, it is what it is because of so many circumstances that are beyond my control. I can't just "make it better" because I want to.
I am sick of everything I am expected to do to be a "good Baha'i" and there is nothing I want more than be an atheist so I can have a life for myself. I am sure that sounds selfish but that is where I am at right now.
Do you really think that most believers are believers but they would rather be atheists? Think again. I don't know what they are getting for themselves for being a believer, that completely eludes me because I get nothing, but they are getting something. They are not only getting something in this life but they believe they will have a reward in the afterlife. I believe there will be a reward too, but I do not want a reward.