Continued:
Anyway, lots of adventures in between, then in 2009 I met my wife and though I considered myself married to her from 2009, I married officially or legally in 2016 I think on May 17th or something. Some kind of Flower Festival from Ancient Rome or something. It was pretty abrupt, I had been in the hospital just the day before which was the beginning of my noticing a bad sort of injury or condition called costochondritis, but I didn't know what it was and only figured it out later and the doctors never seemed very helpful anyway.
Shortly before the whole Covid thing, or in 2019 October, I had taken in the months prior a cross Canada trip from Vancouver all across Canada, and ended up in Prince Edward Island Canada, where I didn't go back and the AirBnB I was staying at had the owner of it mention to me that her friend was looking to rent out an apartment, and so I immediately got that apartment when people were finding it hard to find them, since I didn't want to go back for some reason, and liked this place so much. Anyway, then the Covid happened, which would've been pretty bad had I been in Vancouver, so I was mostly spared from that and had a lot of relaxation and healing here. All my stuff mainly is back in Vancouver though, my big library of books and other things, but I've very suddenly and quickly acquired a lot here as well now to keep me occupied and amused until I am able to get a home here that is large enough to support all the things from my apartment in Vancouver and here as well (plus all my stuff that is still in Hawaii).
I skipped a lot of story elements in between, but in all these 34 years (I just turned 34 I think), I have:
Read a lot
Made a lot of Art
Typed a lot
Made a lot of online posts
Influenced and reached a lot of people
Made over 600 pieces of professional quality music
and feel like I've achieved very little, have nothing much to show for myself, and maintain ambitious fantasies to make more impressive things than I've made already.
I've always wanted to make lots of media, comics, art books, novels, photographs, music, music videos, feature films even, but many of these things seem to require lots of back up, financing, money, friends, things I don't really have too much of, and everything that I have managed so far has been relatively easy, affordable, something I can do on my own and quickly, since I have barely any connections that would make me able to achieve some of the things I'd like to achieve, so my roads have always been more alone and sort of doing what I can however I can to try to get it at the same level without the same kind of back up or anything.
At 34, there is quite a bit of fear as the "Well Harrison Ford was 30 something when he got started) excuse is running out more and more.
Art and creativity have always been pretty much the most important thing to me though, and so I can't see any other option than my casually continuing towards those sorts of projects myself, but it depresses me to think if I'm not able to make all the things I've always wanted to since childhood. If I don't achieve that though, my other goal is to avoid working as much as possible.
I hope this little autobiographical birthday account was entertaining at least, however lacking it may be in additional details (I can elaborate on any points for whoever might want to talk about it).
What I'd like to know, from everyone, is all about your ages, your life story, your goals, what you see in your future or what you want anyway for it. I want to know from the people who are my age or especially older, what they felt like, what happened after for them, what I should look out for, what changes, what they might have done differently, what advice they might give to someone my age and about the future, goals, dreams, dreams going away, hope, losing hope, getting back what is lost, rejuvenation, fitness, diet, whatever.
Over the years I've been in Canada (since 2014), I've gradually (with my metabolism slowing with age as well and possibly not moving as much also) because a little more unfit and chubbier even with a belly, so I want to get a lot more fit if possible, maybe more fit than I've ever been, despite the lack of space or comfort in doing so or knowing how exactly (in the easiest way possible, since I'm very lazy and averse to pain, I even hate sweating and all the inconveniences involved plus aggravating my injury or costochondritis stuff).
Through the true stories and life experiences of people, I try to calculate the best strategies or account for the possible pitfalls to look out for with things, which is likely why I talked to so many people and also how I used all the things I've been told over the years (from 1999 to now online), and all the years before that offline as well as after from people in person, since I ask a lot of questions in person as well and try to get as much information as possible (in a friendly way, and people seem happy to talk a lot and all about themselves).
I also volunteer lots of personal information casually and am very open in the hope for it to be reciprocated or get others to talk very casually and openly about all their thoughts and experiences, because there is so much to learn from the real thoughts, feelings, flaws, errors, realities of human beings than the picture they try to put up or not admit to or which isn't real, I'd rather know all about the reality, however weird, wacky, crazy sounding, paranormal, mystical, coocoo, lame, even evil it might sound.
My email is
[email protected] and anyone at all can email me about anything any time, and people from all around the world send me messages here and there, about all sorts of strange things, their troubles with ghosts, strange events which have happened to them, drug addictions or mental illnesses, family problems, cost of living and living scenarios in the far flung places they are living or have traveled like in South East Asia or Japan or wherever else. How they run their businesses, 1980s Evangelical demon-busting life stories and history, all kinds of weird, wacky, and amazing tales, Romanian ghetto politics and demon worship, weird sexual adventures involved with magical rituals in bathtubs, stories of crimes, unusual graffiti, people walking through barbed wire, its like the X-Files, all sent to my email by request or by people who find out that I'm interested and opened to hearing the things that they have been afraid to tell others sometimes.
All those presents I got myself are for the most part most likely collectible action figures, since it seems the best period of my life experience was when I was growing up in Minnesota and ever since I was little I had a lot of toys and games that I enjoyed a lot (probably enjoying toys more than games, both of which inspired me a lot, besides films also and cartoons). I seem to derive the same sort of pleasure and possibly nostalgia from these sorts of items even today, just looking at them, but even playing with them, mixing and matching them to make unique figures that are close enough to other characters which aren't sold as toys or statues or anything.
The winter is coming and so I have a lot of things in here now to keep me occupied and having fun, and I hope also I can justify them even further than just being enjoyable for me to look at or play with, by putting them to use in inspiring me to get back into making more and more creative things like I used to and more than ever before, and even to get more fit in imitation of their forms.