In despair, I pray, feel the presence of God and my despair goes away... I get periods where I don't want to live any more, God's love gets me through...But HOW did He console & strengthen you?
Because it is not me... from my perspective this question is similar to me getting punched by somebody, and you asking why I believe it was something other than me who caused the pain...What makes you believe it was anything but you who did these things?