This was after we were married... in a Catholic church with a dispensation from the bishop (on account of my not being baptized).
Indeed, the point I had been making before was that she shouldn't have had a problem with your lack of belief in her religion since you'd both been (in her religious estimations) validly married.
If the church accepted it with a dispensation (as it is wont to do frequently since Vatican II in interfaith unions), I just struggle to understand why she was so intent in forcing you against your will into her belief system, when it would've been OK even for St. Paul two thousand years ago that you weren't.
This didn't stop her from worrying about the fate of my soul. In fact, that's why I ended up at RF: she would end up in tears on a regular basis at the thought of me ending up in Hell. I didn't like the idea of my wife being distraught, so I tried my darndest to see if there was a way I could become a Catholic - or at least some sort of Christian - in good conscience.
I am very sorry to hear she put you through this ordeal, I had no idea. It does sound 'emotionally abusive' to me - not least the forced and unexpected baptismal ritual.
The church doesn't teach that people are 'damned' for simply being formally outside her (I guess she misunderstood the meaning of e
cclesiam nulla salus). Even back in the old pre-Vatican II days, there was the medieval doctrine of "
baptism by implicit desire", explained by even Pope Pius IX in
Quanto Conficiamur Moerore (1863) as follows:
“...We all know that those who are afflicted with invincible ignorance with regard to our holy religion [non-believers], if they carefully keep the precepts of the natural law that have been written by God in the hearts of men...and if they lead a virtuous and dutiful life, can attain eternal life by the power of divine light and grace.” Cardinal Juan De Lugo (a. d. 1583-1660), Spaniard, post-Reformation Roman Catholic, Jesuit, Theological Professor, and a Cardinal writing in Rome under the eyes of Pope Urban VIII, had noted this a lot earlier:
“…the members of the various Christian sects, of the Jewish and Mohammedan communions, and of the non-Christian philosophies, who achieved and achieve their salvation, did and do so in general simply by God’s grace aiding their good faith instinctively to concentrate itself upon, and to practise, those elements in the cultus and teaching of their respective sect, communion or philosophy, which are true and good and originally revealed by God…”
- Cardinal Juan De Lugo (a. d. 1583-1660), De Fide, Disputations
In 1713 Pope Clement XI condemned in his dogmatic Bull "Unigenitus" the proposition of the Jensenist Quesnel that "
no grace is given outside the Church" just as Pope Alexander VIII had already condemned in 1690 the Jansenistic proposition of Arnauld: "
Pagans, Jews, heretics, and other people of the sort, receive no influx [of grace] whatsoever from Jesus Christ". We subsequently have plentiful magisterial teaching from binding encyclicals and catechisms, including those of Popes Pius IX, Saint Pius X and Pius XII. See:
Holy Office [Congregation for the Doctrine of the Faith], Aug 9, 1949, condemning doctrine of L. Feeney (DS 3870):
"It is not always required that one be actually incorporated as a
member of the Church, but this at least is required: that one adhere
to it in wish and desire. It is not always necessary that this be
explicit...God accepts even an implicit will, called by that name because it is
contained in the good disposition of soul in which a man wills to
conform his will to the will of God."
Atheists were explicitly stated to be encompassed within this bracket in the Vatican II constitution
Lumen Gentium in 1964:
Lumen gentium
Nor does Divine Providence deny the helps necessary for salvation to those who, without blame on their part, have not yet arrived at an explicit knowledge of God and with His grace strive to live a good life. Whatever good or truth is found amongst them is looked upon by the Church as a preparation for the Gospel.(20*) She knows that it is given by Him who enlightens all men so that they may finally have life.
If I could have had a little catechetical chat with her, with relevant magisterially source material, I'm sure I could have assuaged her unfounded fears.
How sad, all round that her attempt to forcefully baptism you for fear of your soul being damned was not only morally wrong and inane (from a secular perspective) but in violation of the very religion she sought to uphold.