Sadie Stout
Exposing Jesus
First let me tell you that I was a die-hard Christian. Raised by 2 Pentecostal minister's and was on my way to becoming a minister.
I'll tell you the unbelievable condition I am in today.
a result of the "loving" Christ. He took away my sleep, I haven't been able to sleep since December and don't even get tired anymore. I don't get hungry or thirsty and everything tastes awful to me. As of this wasn't bad enough, Jesus "that loves us" has taken away all of my emotions. I don't have one single emotion left in me.
Yes, I understand that you might think this is all medical but let me tell you how I got to be in this condition with any and every quality of life taken.
some major manipulation and spiritual lies where involved.
Early 2019 I was living with my fiance who was an atheist.
I started seeing other faces in his and other voices were speaking through him, so I thought he was possessed and tried to get him "saved" and delivered. Things got worse. I started getting tormented in my apartment, things crawling under the bed, crawling on top of me, moving things on the wall, voices in the other room talking and laughing, things standing behind me, I've recently found out that all of this "Demonic" is actually God himself screwing with people but back to the story.
Soon I start hearing Jesus and receiving personal messages in the Bible, one message said "you have the spoils of a child, you are someone that should not be eating solid food but should be fed milk like that of an infant"
so I am living in this awful apartment with all of this " Demonic " all around trying to "save" my fiance and this "demon" says that if I try to minister to him then he is going to cut my head off. So I want to move out, but Jesus says "no, go home to your husband" " minister to him" I reply, "but he's going to cut my head off" Jesus says "isn't it worth trying to save you both?" So I am crying all the time in a prayer closet that Jesus told me to make, while also trying to get this man saved and the " demonic" finally drives me screaming and crying and running from my apartment to my parents house where I thought I'd be safe but no, I start hearing voices and seeing things.
Nothing gets better it continues to get worse until reaching this meaningless and yes, meaningless existence I am in now.
About a month ago I start hearing from Jesus again and he's back to heal me, things start getting healed again, I start feelings emotions again and then I feel my heart again and then he stops and says "Sadie, you're about to die" but he promised I would go to heaven. So I sit and wait to die but it never happens and then everything he healed gets closed off again. He won't give me life and won't give me death.
Anyway, he starts talking to me again and tells me he isn't going to heal me ever. He also says there aren't any angels, there is no heaven and he doesn't like any people at all. Apparently he likes me even less than others because he took EVERYTHING from me. I believed in the Bible as much as anyone. I tried to get as close to him as anyone. Why was I created to end up in the worst state possible? He said that nothing I did had anything to do with it, that this was going to happen anyway, which means only one thing, God is a monster.
I'll tell you the unbelievable condition I am in today.
a result of the "loving" Christ. He took away my sleep, I haven't been able to sleep since December and don't even get tired anymore. I don't get hungry or thirsty and everything tastes awful to me. As of this wasn't bad enough, Jesus "that loves us" has taken away all of my emotions. I don't have one single emotion left in me.
Yes, I understand that you might think this is all medical but let me tell you how I got to be in this condition with any and every quality of life taken.
some major manipulation and spiritual lies where involved.
Early 2019 I was living with my fiance who was an atheist.
I started seeing other faces in his and other voices were speaking through him, so I thought he was possessed and tried to get him "saved" and delivered. Things got worse. I started getting tormented in my apartment, things crawling under the bed, crawling on top of me, moving things on the wall, voices in the other room talking and laughing, things standing behind me, I've recently found out that all of this "Demonic" is actually God himself screwing with people but back to the story.
Soon I start hearing Jesus and receiving personal messages in the Bible, one message said "you have the spoils of a child, you are someone that should not be eating solid food but should be fed milk like that of an infant"
so I am living in this awful apartment with all of this " Demonic " all around trying to "save" my fiance and this "demon" says that if I try to minister to him then he is going to cut my head off. So I want to move out, but Jesus says "no, go home to your husband" " minister to him" I reply, "but he's going to cut my head off" Jesus says "isn't it worth trying to save you both?" So I am crying all the time in a prayer closet that Jesus told me to make, while also trying to get this man saved and the " demonic" finally drives me screaming and crying and running from my apartment to my parents house where I thought I'd be safe but no, I start hearing voices and seeing things.
Nothing gets better it continues to get worse until reaching this meaningless and yes, meaningless existence I am in now.
About a month ago I start hearing from Jesus again and he's back to heal me, things start getting healed again, I start feelings emotions again and then I feel my heart again and then he stops and says "Sadie, you're about to die" but he promised I would go to heaven. So I sit and wait to die but it never happens and then everything he healed gets closed off again. He won't give me life and won't give me death.
Anyway, he starts talking to me again and tells me he isn't going to heal me ever. He also says there aren't any angels, there is no heaven and he doesn't like any people at all. Apparently he likes me even less than others because he took EVERYTHING from me. I believed in the Bible as much as anyone. I tried to get as close to him as anyone. Why was I created to end up in the worst state possible? He said that nothing I did had anything to do with it, that this was going to happen anyway, which means only one thing, God is a monster.
