Explainer: How to Fully Repent

[Treasure Hunter]

There are two worlds from the first person perspective - external and internal. The external world is associated with the known and with feminine mercy. The internal world is associated with the unknown and masculine justice.

Obviously, facing toward the external world is the default. The judge, who is a character in the first-person-subjective, faces you in the opposite direction. The judge is self awareness, or the one who looks back at you in the mirror. We can access and identify with the judge at any time. He is always available right in front of your face, facing you. When we identify with the judge, then we see through his eyes and turn around. This is how to turn around in repentance.

When someone goes to confession, the priest assumes the role of the judge in that moment. How much the confessor fully engages the ritual translates to the degree they turn around in repentance during confession. When the confessor is forgiven by the priest, the confessor is turned back around toward feminine mercy and the tension of the judgment is eased.

To fully repent is to turn around away from the external world, not turn back, and move forward in the direction of the unknown toward masculine justice by eating the body and drinking the blood of the Son of Man. This requires constant identification with the judge and refusal of the forgiveness which turns you back toward feminine mercy. This is what it means to become male and circumcised in spirit.

I want to point out one more important idea. When Christ ascends, that is going to look different depending on which direction you are facing. Whichever direction you are facing determines which of the two worlds you are currently identifying with and in which world Christ is ascending. As we get toward the end of the story, Christ is associated with justice. Which world is associated with justice? If we want to navigate through the end of the story, what do we need to do?

 

[Treasure Hunter]

For emphasis, in order to move forward in the external world, you can walk using your legs, but in order to move forward in the internal world, you have to consume by eating and drinking. I know some of the more introspective people here are familiar with the internal move of surrendering, but you can map on the act of eating to that sensation. You can imagine it as opening your mouth and consuming.

This will help you get into the Son of Man narrative where we are required to eat the lamb, or to eat the flesh of the Son of Man. Some might be familiar with the idea of eating the serpent or eating the lion.