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The low faith self (LFS) will adjust to any version of the world. It will settle because it has low faith. When the HFS brings forth its pessimistic worldview, the LFS has no difficulty adapting to it and maintaining it.Think of the self divided into two parts: one of high faith and one of low faith. As a young child, the world can fulfill both the high and low faith self. The self is united and all is good.
As the child grows up and their world gets checked by reality, eventually the high faith self (HFS) is no longer fulfilled by the world. This creates a kind of hell for the self, even for the low faith self (LFS) who is well adjusted enough to the new version of the world if not for the pain of un-fulfilled desire experienced by the the LFS via connection to the HFS.
This results in the LFS cutting off the HFS and casting it into the darkness of unconsciousness in the name of pain relief. While the self is now more adjusted to the world, there is part of it that longs to reunite with the HFS.
Drugs and alcohol have multiple affects, but one is the temporary fulfillment of the HFS and reunification of the self. The HFS is brought back into the light with a renewed hope for the world. However, it brings with it a bunch of baggage that has accumulated over the years from being an outcast in the darkness, including a deeply cynical view of life and the world along with resentment towards the LFS. In short, there is a new hope but also a new hell. Reunification of the self but also deep conflict.
The faith path is supposed to gradually and consciously reunite the self by descending into the darkness and reconnecting with the HFS. Then the two parts reconcile and continue on together. Drugs make chaos out of this process, but if we don’t challenge people to consciously descend into the darkness voluntarily, then this is what we get since the desires of the entire self can’t be suppressed forever. Especially when that door is flung open with substances.
The LFS will adopt the pessimistic worldview but then use substances to help bury and suppress the HFS once again, so as to rid itself of the pain of un-fulfilled desire once the affects of the substance(s) diminishes. The LFS becomes highly resistant to the pain associated with the HFS. Whatever feeing of longing and nostalgia for when both parts of the self were united - those feelings are actively being suppressed as well. Defense mechanisms get layered on top. Addiction becomes in service to suppressing rather than reuniting with the HFS.