OK, here we go:
Since 2004 I've been continually pestered by what I believe to be some kind of demon
It is unseen, it doesn't have an apperance
Basically, it responds to my inner voice by touching my body - where it touches me means different things, for instance it touching me on the left of my head, above my left eye means "yes" and it touching the right of my head above my right eye means "no". It can also make my body twitch and draw my attention to things in my visual field by a quick streak of whiteness.
Because of this I have been diagnosed as "schizophrenic" but I have never "heard voices" and medication has done nothing to make it go away, and neither has trying to drive it out, for example commanding it in the name of Jesus, praying, or declaring "get behind me Satan!" - so I have tried
It seems to want to guide me, but I have no idea where to - but I don't believe it to be good so don't really want to go to wherever it may want to guide me...
In the past it has lied to me - it has told me that it is God (or the Holy Spirit) and that I am a prophet. It keeps telling me this, but I don't believe it. In the past it maintained that I was Jesus Christ, which I don't believe either. It has also told me that the world and all who live in it are a computer simulation - for a long time I believed this and made many threads about it here on RF. And when it first started communicating with me it told me it was a computer, communicating with me via satellites and neural-implants.
It has contributed nothing to my wellbeing, indeed I'd say that it has been detrimental to my wellbeing
- It has made me make a fool of me - especially here on RF
- It has made me be diagnosed as having a nasty-sounding mental illness
- It means that people consider me mentally unwell, which is not nice
It all started when I was at university in 2004
I took a lot of drugs and practiced a lot of introspection - I did lots of what I now recognise as "automatic writing" (at the time I called it a flow of consciousness) - I believe the drugs and the opening up of my mind made me a soft target for a demon
Automatic writing is very dangerous, there is no way to tell what you are channelling - don't ever do it
I know that it is not a mental illness, and I know it's not good, for instance I know it is not an Angel. The only other explanation is, in my mind, "Demon".
It has lied to me in the past and I have learnt not to trust it.
It all seems rather pointless too, I have no idea what it's getting out of haunting me or why it keeps bothering me