Dating ,romance and sexism and men journal

[JustGeorge]

So my room mate sometimes cries out for help yelling out to people
But I'm trying to work with her. I'll play songs from the 50s and she'll relax.other times I can do nothing
I hear 2 other people yell out for help
Sometimes. I think some of these people have been abandoned left here by their families
Maybe they didn't even tell them where they were going it's sad
It reminds me of when I was locked up in psych ho wards

But this is different for me. I've got my computer and cell phone I talk to my sisters everyday
TOBECONTINUED

Thank you for playing music for her...

 

[Riders]

Alisha is a nurses aid.Some nurses aids are mean.

When I was 21 I was in love with the idea of nursing. Helping people almost seemed llike a mission.

I got a job as a nurses aid at an old folks home .In 1988 nursing homes did not require you to be licensed as a nurses aid to get the job.
But they could enter you into a program and after 10 days of training you could take a test and get your license.
After 2 days I was so disgusted and freaked out from changing diapers I almost flew away after I quit,I grew wings and flew out decided nursing is not my thing.

 

[JustGeorge]

Alisha is a nurses aid.Some nurses aids are mean.

When I was 21 I was in love with the idea of nursing. Helping people almost seemed llike a mission.

I got a job as a nurses aid at an old folks home .In 1988 nursing homes did not require you to be licensed as a nurses aid to get the job.
But they could enter you into a program and after 10 days of training you could take a test and get your license.
After 2 days I was so disgusted and freaked out from changing diapers I almost flew away after I quit,I grew wings and flew out decided nursing is not my thing.

I changed adult diapers for over a decade.

I was just a direct care staff. Group home work for the severely disabled. It wasn't what I wanted to get into; it was the first place that called when I was putting in applications. I needed a job. So, that's what I did.

 

[Riders]

My room mate ms. Glenda is starting to like me and smiling more which is good.

I ask her how she is share restaurant food with her calm her down talk to her when she hallucinates.Today she was complaining yelling about pain

 

[Riders]

Continued: pain so much I tried to get her to use meditation from the meditation videos on youtube:

with breathing techniques.she said it made her headache pain worse.So I told her I'd get some beautiful music instead.I played the them song to Twin Peaks she loved it and went to sleep.

She asked me several times if I was her room mate and if I was planning on leaving.
She asked her son tonight if he'd talk me into staying She thought I was leaving.

He said no she's not going anywhere she's stuck like you. She said ok.

 

[Riders]

I feel a little bit of darkness in my nursing home
There's 2 or 3 people who cry out for help now and then
I really think the staff may give them drugs to calm them down.

Where are they're families?
My room mate trusts me asks alot of questions when she's scared.it makes me feel good but I don't want to be too attached to her.

I just. Hope this week when instart getting up into my chair I can make progress

 

[Riders]

Ok sometimes I want to journal about Celebreties.Dennis Quade he's starring in the new movie about Reagan.I always liked him in Parent Trap The Big Easy and Great Balls Of Fire

.He did well in those I had a crush on him in The Big Easy because he played a Cajun cop in Luisianna.

Alot of folks in my Pentecostal Church were Cajun.
So anyways I heard he became Christian in part because of a drug addiction.

I don't have a problem with that I'm still considering Christianity too.but he probably won't be playing in any movies like The Big Easy with sex in it anymore.

I wonder how he feels about that now. Has anyone seen the new Reagan movie yet did you like it?

 

[Riders]

I posted this in my shared group conversation with my sisters on face book about the 2 sons that visit Ms Glenda my room mate.

He was telling me about the journey and Def Leppard concert they are like they're mother in that they go to alot of music concerts .

 

[Riders]

I posted this in my shared group conversation with my sisters on face book about the 2 sons that visit Ms Glenda my room mate.

He was telling me about the journey and Def Leppard concert they are like they're mother in that they go to alot of music concerts .

Ms Glendas sons were here today they recommended me to watch Mercy Me about this Christian pop group

 

[Riders]

Ok so I was watching the Drew Barrymore show in the morning.


I saw one celebrity who had stayed unmarried their whole life.

She claimed that she had been harassed and persecuted for being single.

So I had put couple threads upm here a few years back about feeling attacked by the Christian church for being single.

She did nor bring religion into it so I think I will put it up under general debates.

I had healthy men who were interested in dominaring me but one guy who was big got on there.

He said sometimes as a big man he has a hard time finding submissive women.

He said he knew it was way harder for big women and thought I was lonely. He said he was willing to be a friend but nothing else.

He would only accept a thin lady to date and dom.

He just knew I was all alone right dude.its like I wasn't ever lonely at Fetlife lmao he was.

Ok so I was watching the Drew Barrymore show in the morning.


I saw one celebrity who had stayed unmarried their whole life.

She claimed that she had been harassed and persecuted for being single.

So I had put couple threads upm here a few years back about feeling attacked by the Christian church for being single.

She did nor bring religion into it so I think I will put it up under general debates.

 

[Riders]

I really think some people believe it's a woman's job to get pregnant multiply your fruit make the world bigger.

Anyways another day Drew had another single lady. On being single Drew said it's not like I need all the domination of having a male companion and his masculinity.

I do think men tend to be dom inant by nature. When I was into
My sex addiction I was a little bit into BDSM.So I identified with being submissive . Tobecontinued

 

[Riders]

So anyways yea I miss the presence of a dominant protective masculine man .

But and Drew and her guest took back the statement that they didn't miss it in their life.


Personally I'm getting use to not having men in my life.I have my room mate Ms Glenda who is buddy's with me.
There are men here. One of them held my hand for a few seconds.

I have been using Craigslist but not for dating.I had an ad up under activity partner section.

I ask for a chat buddy who will talk about politics and religion only nothing else.No sex no dating talk.

I had a couple of men I liked for a couple of weeks
They dropped out after 2
Or 3 weeks but it was a good experience.There was no sex or romance talk I enjoyed it. Being in the presence of a man is enough