LilyPhoenix
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unsure why i want to start a journal maybe that i need some where to vent
i normally make a journal post for a few days and then forget it
Am going to try and keep this one
I don't work due to my mental health my husband is my full time carer and he don't work because of this
i know some people think that people with mental health problems should work or be doing something to get there money the government is trying to get more disabled people working again
My mental health is so bad that i cant travel on my own and i cant have money because in the past i have bought things to try and kill myself with or cut with
or drink Am an recovering alcoholic and addict On the 21st of this month ill be 6 months clean
Am also a self injurer as well
i cant even have my bus pass because i went missing a few months ago went to the train station and wanted to jump on the track and kill myself i manged to stop myself the police were involved as am a vulnerable adult
So i cant work at the moment because of all this
( unless the government wants my husband to tag a long at work )
Spend most of my time going to groups ( for those with mental health problems )
I have hallucinations voices and seeing things i also have OCD and PTSD and Depression
Today am not going to any groups my husband wants to stay in to tackle the clothes washing
( we have a mountain of clothes to go though and we can only do the washing while we are in as we dont trust our new washing machine not to leak water )
At the moment am listening to Hare Krishna music i found a radio for this
its good ...
On Sunday am going to a Hare Krishna place there will be food there and my husband is coming with me for the first time am going there every other time he just going to take me there then do something else for a while ( he has a phone with him and i have a phone too )
My husband is an atheist ( well he celebrates Christmas as his family does but apart from that he dont believe in anything )
Am settle up my shrine not go much on it i have a picture of Krishna candles and incense holder
but that's it
Tomorrow we are having my teen nieces over for the two nights they go home on the Sunday as they have school the next day i have 4 nieces and one nephew not seen the oldest niece for a while but she is busy with uni the second oldest Nice is having a baby she is due in October and its going to be a girl .
am kinda scared about it ... because of my OCD i keep having thoughts that am going to hurt the baby
but my husband say will not do that as am not that kind of person
Any way that me for now
i normally make a journal post for a few days and then forget it
Am going to try and keep this one
I don't work due to my mental health my husband is my full time carer and he don't work because of this
i know some people think that people with mental health problems should work or be doing something to get there money the government is trying to get more disabled people working again
My mental health is so bad that i cant travel on my own and i cant have money because in the past i have bought things to try and kill myself with or cut with
or drink Am an recovering alcoholic and addict On the 21st of this month ill be 6 months clean
Am also a self injurer as well
i cant even have my bus pass because i went missing a few months ago went to the train station and wanted to jump on the track and kill myself i manged to stop myself the police were involved as am a vulnerable adult
So i cant work at the moment because of all this
( unless the government wants my husband to tag a long at work )
Spend most of my time going to groups ( for those with mental health problems )
I have hallucinations voices and seeing things i also have OCD and PTSD and Depression
Today am not going to any groups my husband wants to stay in to tackle the clothes washing
( we have a mountain of clothes to go though and we can only do the washing while we are in as we dont trust our new washing machine not to leak water )
At the moment am listening to Hare Krishna music i found a radio for this
its good ...
On Sunday am going to a Hare Krishna place there will be food there and my husband is coming with me for the first time am going there every other time he just going to take me there then do something else for a while ( he has a phone with him and i have a phone too )
My husband is an atheist ( well he celebrates Christmas as his family does but apart from that he dont believe in anything )
Am settle up my shrine not go much on it i have a picture of Krishna candles and incense holder
but that's it
Tomorrow we are having my teen nieces over for the two nights they go home on the Sunday as they have school the next day i have 4 nieces and one nephew not seen the oldest niece for a while but she is busy with uni the second oldest Nice is having a baby she is due in October and its going to be a girl .
am kinda scared about it ... because of my OCD i keep having thoughts that am going to hurt the baby
but my husband say will not do that as am not that kind of person
Any way that me for now