question? is it compassionate?
in June, this year, Cosmo was mis-diagnosed with a seizure disorder. The ER Vet was strongly encouraging euthanizing him. The ER Vet gave him 2 weeks...
The diagnosis didn't fit, we ignored it. Stopped the seizure meds, and he has never had a seizure. I am with him virtually 24/7.
Cosmo's only problem? he can't walk, some sort of neurological disorder causing muscle wasting in his back 2 legs. When he sleeps his back legs twitch. And he is a deep sleeper... he "blips" while he is dreaming, it is so cute. When we were on vacation, the doggie hotel didn't communicate this to the night staff. they misinterpreted his sleeping behaviors as a seizure because of his age. And this is why the Vet made the grossly inaccurate prognosis.
I made Cosmo a "marionette" harness from dowel rods, bicycle handlebar tape, tent cordage, and 2 harnesses from petco. And now he gets out and walks many times a day. He is happy. And Strong. A good eater. Beloved by my wife and kids. He has a fan club of kids, neighbors, and the neighborhood dogs. He is actually getting stronger, and can "bunny hop" around on carpet, but wood floors.... no bueno...
Cosmo is a Tibetian Spaniel, bred here in america, the pedigree has a long life span. 20 years is not uncommon.
My mother-in-law and a few of my friends ( "farmers" ) are visibly uncomfortable around Cosmo. Each of them has had multiple dogs, each of them have had to make hard compassionate end of life choices for their pets. They tell me, they can see it in Cosmo's eyes. He is sad. He can't walk, or run, or get to the food, or water on his own. They say, "He can't be a dog."
I see what they see. I think. But I see more than that. These are very low-energy dogs by breed. "Bed Warmers" "Comfort Hounds". And they sleep 16-18 hours day normally.
But he can't walk on his own, and i imagine for a dog, this is a very troubling situation psychologically.
But i can't let go, and he seems to be getting better **in spite of it all**.
My current approach, and i think it's good: watch for pain and fear and any signs of increasing health problems.
status quo or improvement = keep on going
as long as he stays strong and happy, i will continue the 24/7 care.
but this thread makes me curious, on an intellectual / spiritual perspective:
is it cruel or compassionate?
go ahead be blunt. you won't change my mind. i'm just curious.
with much love and great respect,
-DF-