Spiderman
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So, my mental health professionals always deliver my meds each wednesday in a bag that I don't open until they are gone. This is the second time they didn't deliver certain meds that I didn't think were a big deal, because it saves tax payers dollars if I'm not taking them, and there is a certain reward in not taking them, like more energy, and uncontrollable laughter at times at stuff that I wouldn't normally find funny.
Well, I decided to tell one of them about how they are forgetting the medication, because it was causing me to neglect taking other medications that they had remembered, and I realized that the reward I was getting from not being medicated, is very similar to a reward from drugs that increase immoral behavior or being selfish, immature, lack of self control, lack of self respect, lack of behaving in a way that deserves respect.
Drugs that deal with bipolar, anti psychotic drugs, drugs working on dopamine, serotonin, nor-epinephrine, or Gabba, those drugs all work on the same chemicals in the brain that meth, disassociatives like PCP, cocaine, and certain psychedelics, as well as to a certain extent alcohol (because things that work on Gabba, always help people who are about to have seizures from Alcohol withdrawl).
So, to being without those drugs has all the potential to be just as destructive as being on a controlled substance. Also, things that are not drugs, such as being in love, sexual addictions, or any addiction, including food, work on the same chemicals as heroin and meth, so can be just as addictive, if not more, and bring just as much destruction to the person trying to get their fix, including the manipulation and hurting of others.
Also, being in the ER twice recently, and being on the stuff they were giving me as an IV was a little bit too rewarding as well, and triggered some insanity.
Mental illness is very dangerous, and this is kind of occult related, because if you believe in unclean spirits that you can become enslaved to, who ruin your lives, and have access to you when you fall into sin, they will prey on mental illness, because mentally ill people are very easy to take advantage of, are irresponsible, are more likely to wind up in dangerous situations, easier to manipulate, and people talk about spiritual warfare and an enemy prowling like a roaring lion seeking someone to devour. If there is truth to such entities, if you are fighting a war against an enemy, you can defeat them a lot easier if they stop taking a pill that is going to prevent them from being schizophrenic or having mania. So, any enemy cannot wait to see signs that their opponent has lost their mind, in any type of violent combat.
Saint Dymphna, patron Saint of mental illness, came from a good family, then when her mother died, her Dad who showed no signs of mental illness became extremely mentally ill from the grief and loss. It became a danger for her to live with him, so she had a clergy help her flee to a different country, where she began taking care of the sick and mentally ill.
Her Father tracked her down and decapitated her with the person who helped her run away. That kind of behavior appears very demonic, as well as extremely mentally ill, but her dad was actually an over achiever, very wealthy and successful, would be the envy of what the vast majority wouldn't have, with a beautiful wife and family, very respected, who went completely mentally ill, to an extreme that most people out to lunch never go, and it had nothing to do with him abusing drugs or alcohol. It had to do with the pain of losing his wife, drove him completely nuts, made him a different person, dangerous, and look/act like someone with demons.
I'm back on my meds. And will be in the habit of checking the bag now to make sure I have everything before staff leave. It didn't dawn on me how important a stupid pill can be each day, regarding control of behaviors, but also, how without that med, I stop thinking it's important to take the others. Then they told me they were sending the meds yesterday with someone, and he never had them.
Has anyone here dealt with incompetence in mental health workers not doing their job, even after you correct them and they tell you how they are going to correct the problem, they tell you when they will correct the problem precisely, and then they don't? But I can't blame them, I intentionally didn't correct the problem earlier, and should have easily been more honest about the signs of needing a lobotomy I was displaying, but you would expect a bit more responsible behavior coming from the sane certified licensed professionals.
Even with meds, recognizing signs of mental illness are important, because typically a person doesn't actually know they are crazy while they are having an episode.
Well, I decided to tell one of them about how they are forgetting the medication, because it was causing me to neglect taking other medications that they had remembered, and I realized that the reward I was getting from not being medicated, is very similar to a reward from drugs that increase immoral behavior or being selfish, immature, lack of self control, lack of self respect, lack of behaving in a way that deserves respect.
Drugs that deal with bipolar, anti psychotic drugs, drugs working on dopamine, serotonin, nor-epinephrine, or Gabba, those drugs all work on the same chemicals in the brain that meth, disassociatives like PCP, cocaine, and certain psychedelics, as well as to a certain extent alcohol (because things that work on Gabba, always help people who are about to have seizures from Alcohol withdrawl).
So, to being without those drugs has all the potential to be just as destructive as being on a controlled substance. Also, things that are not drugs, such as being in love, sexual addictions, or any addiction, including food, work on the same chemicals as heroin and meth, so can be just as addictive, if not more, and bring just as much destruction to the person trying to get their fix, including the manipulation and hurting of others.
Also, being in the ER twice recently, and being on the stuff they were giving me as an IV was a little bit too rewarding as well, and triggered some insanity.
Mental illness is very dangerous, and this is kind of occult related, because if you believe in unclean spirits that you can become enslaved to, who ruin your lives, and have access to you when you fall into sin, they will prey on mental illness, because mentally ill people are very easy to take advantage of, are irresponsible, are more likely to wind up in dangerous situations, easier to manipulate, and people talk about spiritual warfare and an enemy prowling like a roaring lion seeking someone to devour. If there is truth to such entities, if you are fighting a war against an enemy, you can defeat them a lot easier if they stop taking a pill that is going to prevent them from being schizophrenic or having mania. So, any enemy cannot wait to see signs that their opponent has lost their mind, in any type of violent combat.
Saint Dymphna, patron Saint of mental illness, came from a good family, then when her mother died, her Dad who showed no signs of mental illness became extremely mentally ill from the grief and loss. It became a danger for her to live with him, so she had a clergy help her flee to a different country, where she began taking care of the sick and mentally ill.
Her Father tracked her down and decapitated her with the person who helped her run away. That kind of behavior appears very demonic, as well as extremely mentally ill, but her dad was actually an over achiever, very wealthy and successful, would be the envy of what the vast majority wouldn't have, with a beautiful wife and family, very respected, who went completely mentally ill, to an extreme that most people out to lunch never go, and it had nothing to do with him abusing drugs or alcohol. It had to do with the pain of losing his wife, drove him completely nuts, made him a different person, dangerous, and look/act like someone with demons.
I'm back on my meds. And will be in the habit of checking the bag now to make sure I have everything before staff leave. It didn't dawn on me how important a stupid pill can be each day, regarding control of behaviors, but also, how without that med, I stop thinking it's important to take the others. Then they told me they were sending the meds yesterday with someone, and he never had them.
Has anyone here dealt with incompetence in mental health workers not doing their job, even after you correct them and they tell you how they are going to correct the problem, they tell you when they will correct the problem precisely, and then they don't? But I can't blame them, I intentionally didn't correct the problem earlier, and should have easily been more honest about the signs of needing a lobotomy I was displaying, but you would expect a bit more responsible behavior coming from the sane certified licensed professionals.
Even with meds, recognizing signs of mental illness are important, because typically a person doesn't actually know they are crazy while they are having an episode.
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