I am getting older
I've built hardly anything with you
My distance from you not shorter
As death get's closer too
I've destroyed the treasures from your light
That you originated me on
Losing of all that is important by my sight
Instead lust and caprice is what I'm upon
If I die like this
Truly hell I deserve
Truly not bliss
Indeed from you reminder I swerve
If you forgive
Than who is better and suited for that than you
Am I worse then all the evil souls you give
Out of mercy guidance to know who?
The Lord that makes tolerating this stench possible
Only that I see you and that you are with me
Has made suicide impossible
Wanting me to serve your creatures with leaving a legacy
A legacy of knowledge and wisdom I do not deserve
But perhaps if I humbly share
One day I will be reward my intention to serve
Serve the Lord who I was bold to dare
Dare to bring death upon me
And end my fate in injustice
Or blind my vision towards the true me
That I despite my evil would feel righteous
God I have no choice but to ask your pardon
But you have a choice and can always reject
I am at your mercy for what I've done
But cannot despair when truly you are kind to this pitiful subject
I've gone too far
Reckless I've been
No matter how low I've set my bar
Your blessings and kindness I've seen
I know deep inside you wish better for me than myself
Perhaps this has embolden me be reckless above all else
Forgive me my Lord
And redeem and reform me by your holy sword
I've built hardly anything with you
My distance from you not shorter
As death get's closer too
I've destroyed the treasures from your light
That you originated me on
Losing of all that is important by my sight
Instead lust and caprice is what I'm upon
If I die like this
Truly hell I deserve
Truly not bliss
Indeed from you reminder I swerve
If you forgive
Than who is better and suited for that than you
Am I worse then all the evil souls you give
Out of mercy guidance to know who?
The Lord that makes tolerating this stench possible
Only that I see you and that you are with me
Has made suicide impossible
Wanting me to serve your creatures with leaving a legacy
A legacy of knowledge and wisdom I do not deserve
But perhaps if I humbly share
One day I will be reward my intention to serve
Serve the Lord who I was bold to dare
Dare to bring death upon me
And end my fate in injustice
Or blind my vision towards the true me
That I despite my evil would feel righteous
God I have no choice but to ask your pardon
But you have a choice and can always reject
I am at your mercy for what I've done
But cannot despair when truly you are kind to this pitiful subject
I've gone too far
Reckless I've been
No matter how low I've set my bar
Your blessings and kindness I've seen
I know deep inside you wish better for me than myself
Perhaps this has embolden me be reckless above all else
Forgive me my Lord
And redeem and reform me by your holy sword