savagewind,
Until you pray for a good heart, l am afraid you will not be able to understand God's words. Any person who wants to understand, must be like a small child, humble, and asking questions, instead of making strong assertions, that are mostly dereism, at best, Matthew 18:2-6, 1Timothy 1:3-7. We are told very clearly that a person cannot understand God's word if his heart is bad, Matthew 13:13-15. Jesus made several statements about the heart, Mark 7:20,21, Luke 10:21.
Jeremiah made it clear that the heart is not to be trusted, unless of course, it has been trained by the Bible, Jeremiah 17:5,7,9, Proverbs 28:26, Hebrews 5:14, Proverbs 3:5,6. No wicked can understand, Daniel 12:10, Isaiah 26:10. There is hope, James 1:5-8. You must be careful not to stumble anyone who is wanting to understand the Bible, because you could lose your own salvation, Matthew 18:6,7, Philippians 1:9,10, 1Corinthians 8:11, Romans 14:15, 2Peter 3:15-18