Spiderman
Veteran Member
What would you like to declare war on?
I'm not going to change my name cuz I've been known by this name for quite a few years now, but on Mussolini's birthday and my anniversary of relapse, July 29th, (also the day supermodel nafisa Joseph hung herself), I officially declared war on dope.
Here are some of my strategies for winning this war:
Keep a sign on my door that tells people not to sell or offer me anything.
Cheap headphones and music blasting in my ears to give the mind a flow of natural dopamine and endorphins.
Lots of caffeine and nicotine gum.
Gradually I will wean myself off all of those, but they are necessary in the meantime to get me out of bed and walking around.
I was on dope virtually almost every day this past year. I would spend government money and panhandling money on nothing but dope. I'd also do other stuff that isn't legal therefore against the rules to mention.
Now I spend that money on healthy nutrition. I'm also taking st. John's Wort for serotonin, and taking Wellbutrin for norepinephrine and dopamine.
The first few days of sobriety I was bedridden almost 24 hours a day. Now, I been moving around and getting sunshine.
The music is excessive but crucial because there is a flood of bad memories of all the stupid things I've done while under the influence. It keeps the mind off those memories.
Without the music I would likely be still bedridden all day drenched in cold sweats.
I was really tempted to relapse last night. I told my dealers do not sell even if I ask you to. One of them though I think would be quick to not abide by that.
Everything is foggy inside, So Sunshine, nutrition, prayer, offering up my suffering to God, staying away from users, cutting off all my connections and telling them "do not sell to me even if I ask you to", daily Mass, AA meetings, and frequent meetings with mental health professionals is my strategy for winning this war.
What are your strategies for winning your crusade?
I'm not going to change my name cuz I've been known by this name for quite a few years now, but on Mussolini's birthday and my anniversary of relapse, July 29th, (also the day supermodel nafisa Joseph hung herself), I officially declared war on dope.
Here are some of my strategies for winning this war:
Keep a sign on my door that tells people not to sell or offer me anything.
Cheap headphones and music blasting in my ears to give the mind a flow of natural dopamine and endorphins.
Lots of caffeine and nicotine gum.
Gradually I will wean myself off all of those, but they are necessary in the meantime to get me out of bed and walking around.
I was on dope virtually almost every day this past year. I would spend government money and panhandling money on nothing but dope. I'd also do other stuff that isn't legal therefore against the rules to mention.
Now I spend that money on healthy nutrition. I'm also taking st. John's Wort for serotonin, and taking Wellbutrin for norepinephrine and dopamine.
The first few days of sobriety I was bedridden almost 24 hours a day. Now, I been moving around and getting sunshine.
The music is excessive but crucial because there is a flood of bad memories of all the stupid things I've done while under the influence. It keeps the mind off those memories.
Without the music I would likely be still bedridden all day drenched in cold sweats.
I was really tempted to relapse last night. I told my dealers do not sell even if I ask you to. One of them though I think would be quick to not abide by that.
Everything is foggy inside, So Sunshine, nutrition, prayer, offering up my suffering to God, staying away from users, cutting off all my connections and telling them "do not sell to me even if I ask you to", daily Mass, AA meetings, and frequent meetings with mental health professionals is my strategy for winning this war.
What are your strategies for winning your crusade?
