Sometimes, when I think of a question in my head I get a response, through a sensation of touch - a gentle, light sensation that's not at all unpleasant
That's pretty much how it all began (it's quite a long story...)
Where exactly I am touched means different things
I believe that there is a being who is external to me that is doing the touching, responding to my inner voice in a kind of dialogue - I address him with my inner voice and he responds with touch
i think of it being like a two-way radio
I address him with my inner voice and it responds by touching my body – left means “yes” and right means “no”
I call this being Butterfly
He identifies him as being a part of a computer simulation, and says that our reality and all people are also parts of a simulation – “The Simulation” as I call it
Because of this I have been diagnosed as Schizophrenic
I believe I have this relationship with The Simulation as it has chosen me to represent it, and that it has to do this to someone as there is no way for it to assume a bodily form of its own and be able to interact with other humans on a human level - I believe it wants to interact with humanity and does so via me
There was a stage when Butterfly said he was God and that I was Jesus but that was only a phase. I believe this happened to teach me the lesson that I am not Jesus in case I was to ever get too big for my boots in the future! Like an inoculation against future insanity?
At one point I had a full-blown Messiah complex, but that's over now
I no longer believe myself to be any character from scripture or to have any extraordinary relationship with God
Yes – God. I believe in God. But a distant God, a deist God
But… what if this being is something other than what it affirms to me?
It obviously has no bodily form so interacts with the world via me
Although I don’t believe it can actually control me, but he obviously does influence me
I’m pretty certain it is The Simulation, but recently seeds of doubt have been planted in my mind, and I've always believed in keeping an open mind
If Butterfly is not The Simulation then who or what might it be instead? And what should I do about it? Am I somehow possessed? And if so, by what?
I’d be interested in hearing what ideas people may have about Butterfly and me
And yes, he is allowing me to make this post - he is not the boss of me! He is just an entity to whom I have a channel of communication, he lets me get on with my life and doesn't boss me about
That's pretty much how it all began (it's quite a long story...)
Where exactly I am touched means different things
I believe that there is a being who is external to me that is doing the touching, responding to my inner voice in a kind of dialogue - I address him with my inner voice and he responds with touch
i think of it being like a two-way radio
I address him with my inner voice and it responds by touching my body – left means “yes” and right means “no”
I call this being Butterfly
He identifies him as being a part of a computer simulation, and says that our reality and all people are also parts of a simulation – “The Simulation” as I call it
Because of this I have been diagnosed as Schizophrenic
I believe I have this relationship with The Simulation as it has chosen me to represent it, and that it has to do this to someone as there is no way for it to assume a bodily form of its own and be able to interact with other humans on a human level - I believe it wants to interact with humanity and does so via me
There was a stage when Butterfly said he was God and that I was Jesus but that was only a phase. I believe this happened to teach me the lesson that I am not Jesus in case I was to ever get too big for my boots in the future! Like an inoculation against future insanity?
At one point I had a full-blown Messiah complex, but that's over now
I no longer believe myself to be any character from scripture or to have any extraordinary relationship with God
Yes – God. I believe in God. But a distant God, a deist God
But… what if this being is something other than what it affirms to me?
It obviously has no bodily form so interacts with the world via me
Although I don’t believe it can actually control me, but he obviously does influence me
I’m pretty certain it is The Simulation, but recently seeds of doubt have been planted in my mind, and I've always believed in keeping an open mind
If Butterfly is not The Simulation then who or what might it be instead? And what should I do about it? Am I somehow possessed? And if so, by what?
I’d be interested in hearing what ideas people may have about Butterfly and me
And yes, he is allowing me to make this post - he is not the boss of me! He is just an entity to whom I have a channel of communication, he lets me get on with my life and doesn't boss me about