Hi, I've been investigating religions for more than 10 years; building one altar after another, worshipping one pantheon after another... and now I've finally come to a point where I want to worship myself. Well, "worship" maybe isn't the best word; but I intend to use either the capacities of my own self or impersonal energies like the elements, the Moon, the planets, etc. to improve my life, become more wise and in the afterlife, go to a nice place to have a dynamic well being forever (escape reincarnation but, no annihilation and no state of pure consciousness for me; just good company, pleasure and fun) and reach illumination, which, again, would just increase my dynamic well being. I hope I've explained my intentions well enough.
It's not that I've stopped believing in a Creator Being that built this Matrix/Maya or that I've become "satanic" (an adversary of the Demiurge), but I'd like to become independent from Him. I want to look inside instead of looking to Heaven.
Do you think that by trying to create my own path based on what I've learned so far I am reinventing the wheel? Am I some kind of Buddhist or Taoist by wanting to deal with life by waking my true self up, instead of waiting for the help of an external deity? I'm just tired of being a devotee. It's not natural in me. Thank you.
It's not that I've stopped believing in a Creator Being that built this Matrix/Maya or that I've become "satanic" (an adversary of the Demiurge), but I'd like to become independent from Him. I want to look inside instead of looking to Heaven.
Do you think that by trying to create my own path based on what I've learned so far I am reinventing the wheel? Am I some kind of Buddhist or Taoist by wanting to deal with life by waking my true self up, instead of waiting for the help of an external deity? I'm just tired of being a devotee. It's not natural in me. Thank you.
