Crazy Bear
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Hello, all.
I've been having a sort of spiritual crisis this holiday season. I've felt sort of empty and whatnot. I am of no particular religion but more of a seeker in the act of seeking. So, last night before I went to bed (my whole house was already asleep), I got the strong urge to take a shower. It wasn't really out of nowhere, I hadn't had one that day, but still, normally I would have waited for the morning. I'm not a nighttime shower kind of person. During the shower I got the idea that it was some sort of purification thing. It wasn't a strong 'message from God' type of thing, it was just an idea. The water felt good, like it was washing away something.
I went to my room downstairs and started reading (I always read before bed) and before long I got the really strong urge to pray. Pray? Woah, man. That's not something I really do. I kneeled and didn't know what to think, what to say. Who to address. I decided to do something really out of nowhere. I was likely influenced by Wicca books and Shamanism books and all sorts of things I've read in the past, but I invited the Bear, the Eagle, the Wolf, and the Buffalo to visit me. (Those four weren't just pulled out of my ***; we have a medicine wheel depicting the four of them in our basement).
It felt like it was only half of an attempt, maybe. Or maybe just not exactly spiritual. I meant it, but I didn't get anything from it.
I continued reading until I fell asleep and when I woke up I got those fleeting dream images that you have to try really hard to piece together. The final image was that of a bear and an eagle... Combining? Maybe. There was a great bright yellow-orange light occupied by a bear and an eagle and they were doing something together.
I was in an underground subway station. The guy at the desk offered to help me get away from them. I don't know what I said. I don't think I said anything. This was just before the great light.
And before that I was running. There were also the bear and eagle here but I have the feeling they were more menacing, and maybe in human form? Either way it was them. I'm not sure if I was running with them or from them. This was the earliest part of the dream.
So, can someone help interpret? Was it just any old dream I'm grasping to read into or was my invitation accepted? Note the lack of wolf and bison.
Sorry if this isn't the appropriate section!
I've been having a sort of spiritual crisis this holiday season. I've felt sort of empty and whatnot. I am of no particular religion but more of a seeker in the act of seeking. So, last night before I went to bed (my whole house was already asleep), I got the strong urge to take a shower. It wasn't really out of nowhere, I hadn't had one that day, but still, normally I would have waited for the morning. I'm not a nighttime shower kind of person. During the shower I got the idea that it was some sort of purification thing. It wasn't a strong 'message from God' type of thing, it was just an idea. The water felt good, like it was washing away something.
I went to my room downstairs and started reading (I always read before bed) and before long I got the really strong urge to pray. Pray? Woah, man. That's not something I really do. I kneeled and didn't know what to think, what to say. Who to address. I decided to do something really out of nowhere. I was likely influenced by Wicca books and Shamanism books and all sorts of things I've read in the past, but I invited the Bear, the Eagle, the Wolf, and the Buffalo to visit me. (Those four weren't just pulled out of my ***; we have a medicine wheel depicting the four of them in our basement).
It felt like it was only half of an attempt, maybe. Or maybe just not exactly spiritual. I meant it, but I didn't get anything from it.
I continued reading until I fell asleep and when I woke up I got those fleeting dream images that you have to try really hard to piece together. The final image was that of a bear and an eagle... Combining? Maybe. There was a great bright yellow-orange light occupied by a bear and an eagle and they were doing something together.
I was in an underground subway station. The guy at the desk offered to help me get away from them. I don't know what I said. I don't think I said anything. This was just before the great light.
And before that I was running. There were also the bear and eagle here but I have the feeling they were more menacing, and maybe in human form? Either way it was them. I'm not sure if I was running with them or from them. This was the earliest part of the dream.
So, can someone help interpret? Was it just any old dream I'm grasping to read into or was my invitation accepted? Note the lack of wolf and bison.
Sorry if this isn't the appropriate section!