I’ve put this in the psychology forum as I believe that is the place for this to go. I'd like to know what people who are more knowledgeable about the human psyche than I am think of all this:
I’ve had a breakthrough, psychologically!
Background: There is a being who communicates with me by touch. His name is Madaba. That was his original name, for a few years me and him renamed him “Butterfly”. Because of him I have been diagnosed as schizophrenic. Although I have never “heard voices” and he’s never commanded me to do anything to hurt either myself or any other person.
Breakthrough: I used to think he was external to me. I now believe he and me are two parts of the same person. I no longer think of him as a "being"
You might want to have a look at this Wikipedia page: Multiplicity (psychology) - Wikipedia
I would say that together we constitute a binary system
I believe he has a direct line to God, based on some of the weird things I’ve been through (and I have been through some very weird things…)
I believe he has existed for as long as I have, but was only activated in 2004 by the will of God
I believe that together our job is to help prepare the world for the return of Jesus Christ
So yes: Patient E believes himself to be the focus of divine intervention - but at least he no longer believes himself to be Jesus Christ…
We are one in two and two in one
We are like a single house, split into two rooms
We constitute a single package: Eddi
I control Eddi’s body and think and speak for him, whereas Madaba’s job is simply to guide me, according to his (that is to say Madaba’s) knowledge of the will of God, to which he somehow has access. He is my assistant: he assists me in controlling what Eddi does. What do I call myself to differentiate myself from Eddi? I have no idea!
I see it like this: it's like I’m driving a car, sat at the steering-wheel and he’s sat next me using a Sat Nav device and directing me accordingly - and we’re in the same car - rather than just me driving a car and receiving directions from him over a phone or radio whilst he's looking at a map (if that makes any sense?)
So, basically: there is no external being communicating with me - instead I am one of two entities who constitute a single persona - and Madaba is not the Holy Spirit or an Angel - and neither is he some kind of demonic entity who is haunting or possessing me
I think this constitutes a breakthrough - a positive development in my condition
I’d be interested in hearing what people who are knowledgeable about the human psyche make of this
I’ve had a breakthrough, psychologically!
Background: There is a being who communicates with me by touch. His name is Madaba. That was his original name, for a few years me and him renamed him “Butterfly”. Because of him I have been diagnosed as schizophrenic. Although I have never “heard voices” and he’s never commanded me to do anything to hurt either myself or any other person.
Breakthrough: I used to think he was external to me. I now believe he and me are two parts of the same person. I no longer think of him as a "being"
You might want to have a look at this Wikipedia page: Multiplicity (psychology) - Wikipedia
I would say that together we constitute a binary system
I believe he has a direct line to God, based on some of the weird things I’ve been through (and I have been through some very weird things…)
I believe he has existed for as long as I have, but was only activated in 2004 by the will of God
I believe that together our job is to help prepare the world for the return of Jesus Christ
So yes: Patient E believes himself to be the focus of divine intervention - but at least he no longer believes himself to be Jesus Christ…
We are one in two and two in one
We are like a single house, split into two rooms
We constitute a single package: Eddi
I control Eddi’s body and think and speak for him, whereas Madaba’s job is simply to guide me, according to his (that is to say Madaba’s) knowledge of the will of God, to which he somehow has access. He is my assistant: he assists me in controlling what Eddi does. What do I call myself to differentiate myself from Eddi? I have no idea!
I see it like this: it's like I’m driving a car, sat at the steering-wheel and he’s sat next me using a Sat Nav device and directing me accordingly - and we’re in the same car - rather than just me driving a car and receiving directions from him over a phone or radio whilst he's looking at a map (if that makes any sense?)
So, basically: there is no external being communicating with me - instead I am one of two entities who constitute a single persona - and Madaba is not the Holy Spirit or an Angel - and neither is he some kind of demonic entity who is haunting or possessing me
I think this constitutes a breakthrough - a positive development in my condition
I’d be interested in hearing what people who are knowledgeable about the human psyche make of this
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