I thought to post this after listening to the Christian radio station this morning and hearing a testimonial. I used to think it was silly that God would have a Plan for people’s lives and I disagreed with Christians who say that because I do not believe that God is controlling our lives. Rather, I believe humans have their own will to act on their own behalf. However, I now realize that does not preclude God having a Plan for our lives in the sense that whatever happens was predestined. I believe that human free will and predestination can coexist but I cannot say exactly how that works because I don’t think anyone can know that.
My life is up in the air and I have many things in my life to resolve. I have anxiety so I am anxious that these things are not resolved and I don’t know if or when they will ever be resolved. However, today I am choosing to trust that whatever happens is God’s Will and that it will be in my best interest. I trust God because I see that things get resolved in spite of my not trying to control things like I used to do, which never worked out.
I feel like Job given all the suffering I have endured for more years than I care to say, but right now, other than an upcoming dental appointment, I don’t have anything that is really worrisome. Although there are many things that I will need to resolve eventually, I trust that God will help me figure out what to.
If I think back to what was happening one year ago this month, even two years ago or three years ago, I cringe and I wonder how I got through all of that. Now I know I was not alone, that God was there with me all along. It is always easier for me to realize that in retrospect. I thank Christians and their testimonials for reminding me of God’s presence and goodness, because I tend to lose my faith that God is good, as some of my fellow Baha’is know only too well.
I think there was a reason I suddenly decided to turn on that radio station this morning, after I had decided I did not want to listen to Christian music anymore.
Sincerely, Trailblazer.