Doctrine imposes that if you own suffering then the sacrifice and holy spirit meant to save you, and did not save you proved that you were unworthy.
Why I never believed in the Jesus sacrifice teachings, for when a little baby is born mutated, owned only by the act of human sex, and people still want to have that status preached to true innocence, I cried and cried and cried when I gained that realization.
I was never unworthy, science the cause of all life harm is unworthy and evil.
So I learnt to rationalize indoctrinated themes, as owned by the humans who applied it against us.
Now I learnt in learning that teaching owned 2 methods, to try to rationalize the science cause to the humans who chose it against self humanity, our brothers and sisters...to the whole of humanity.
And we all live naturally as a whole of humanity, so all got preached those teachings, when most of us were totally innocent, of those forms of occult science beliefs, statuses, wants, knowledge and practice and realization that some of our human family hate us so much that they infer unrealistic attacks on our innocent psyche.
So I decided to try to teach against that history to bring spiritual consciousness to a place in human self realization about what teaching methods were used that were not as successful as the Healing medical society had hoped.
When you are dealing with such a diverse science caused personality and mind irradiated life and body, it was not an easy ideal how to assist everyone.
So as I do love my humanity, I learnt that even though some teachings seemed to be an evilly owned intention, not everything is as it seems....why sharing and discussing history was important.