Trying to make Leah feel special

Would anyone like to give me ideas on how to edit this very rough draft I'm writing to a girl who I feel I met through Divine appointment. Keep in mind, I'm not trying to go out on a date with this girl. If I was trying to go out with her I'd not write a letter that sounds like I'm totally obsessed with her.

I'm not obsessed with her in the sense that I'm trying to date her. What I'm trying to do is simply make her feel special, because she is the most special female I have ever met in real life. I admit, it's a letter of a man who is obsessed, and absurdly eccentric, weird, and possibly not appropriate, but a girl could potentially feel special even from a guy whose obsessed. I'm not trying to look cool. I'm simply trying to make her feel special and more awesome than the average person. Does this rough draft have the potential to make her feel special about herself at my expense?

Any ideas?

Greetings Leah. I think it’s important that you know why Leah is the greatest woman in Scripture, the spouse of Mussolini (Mussolini is surname for Jacob), and why no one can argue the fact that she is the most influential Old Testament female, and her husband Jacob was the most influential male, prophet, and patriarch. You also should know that I had devotion to the spirit of Leah long before I met you, because I relate to her more than any woman in Scripture and I relate to her husband more than any male in Scripture, and I’d not know who the two of them were had Mussolini not had the same name, and similar behavior as Leah’s spouse. The reason I feel you should know this is because in Scripture, figures often live up to their name and their name often is their destiny, which is why God changed some people’s names to suit their calling and vocation. Jacob totally lived up to what the name Jacob means, then his name was changed to Israel, and he totally lived up to that name. In Scripture, it was important to God, that important people had names that described their destiny and vocation. Leah, the strongest steadfast wife, lived up to all definitions of her name.

I abandoned the Bible thinking it was outdated, stirs up division, and sometimes ridiculous, but love the story of Jacob and Leah, and I like them more than any other figures in Scripture because of their link to my encounter with the Spirit of Mussolini, and one reason is because Leah's spouse fought with God and won, earning him the name Israel, which means “contender with God”, and Leah was an enemy of Rachel and Jacob for a time, and in the end won.

Rachel mistreated Leah out of jealousy because Scripture says, ““When the LORD saw that Leah was unloved, He opened her womb; but Rachel was barren” (Genesis 29:31), and there was a battle between the two of them, and Jacob sided with Rachel, but in the end Leah won, because although Rachel had more external beauty, Leah had a rich inner soul and heart of gold that delighted God. Her heart and soul delighted God more than anyone's external beauty, so from Leah the reader learns the valuable lesson that beauty seen in a person's appearance is fleeting and deceptive, true beauty is within. Leah's heartache and the many tears she had, won God's favor… so from her we learn the lesson that God rewards tears, crosses, rejection, afflictions, persecution, trials, and suffering.

Every Jew is a descendant of Jacob (Mussolini) and Leah bore Jacob more sons than Rachel and was more blessed and favored by God than Rachel, giving birth to 6 of the tribes of Israel compared to Rachel’s 2, and the other four children who made up the twelve tribes of Israel were descendants of 4 Women Jacob wasn’t married to.

It was the descendants of Leah, not Rachel or the mothers of the other four tribes of Israel, that received the most grace and glorious destiny by far.

Since Jacob always favored Leah's enemy Rachel, Leah’s marriage was hell to endure. God favored Leah who was locked in a tedious martyrdom, shedding many tears over the constant abuse she received from Rachel and rejection from Jacob, so the name Leah in Hebrew means “delicate, weary, and tired” for she carried a heavy heart from rejection and mistreatment. So, when I’m feeling fragile, weary, and tired, I turn to her, and she helps tremendously.

However, you can live up to your name without being “Delicate, weary,” or “tired”. The Greek spelling of Leah means “bringer of good news”. In Chaldean Leah means “mistress or a woman in power and authority.” In Assyrian the name means “ruler”. She was all of the above and God richly rewarded her above all women in the Old Testament. You are a woman in power and authority afterall.

In the vicious battle between the two Mother's of Judaism, Leah won. The only Israelites who didn’t commit idolatry with the golden calf were from Leah’s line… the Messiah, Jesus Christ, whom most Christians believe to be God Incarnate, is a descendant of Leah…. Moses, the most influential Old Testament figure after Leah’s husband, was her descendant. The Apostle Matthew (which means gift of God), who wrote the first Gospel, and who my parents named me after, was a descendant of Leah.

She was also by heavenly decree destined to marry Jacob's Twin Esau. She petitioned God with tears and through scheming and deception became Jacob's spouse, so she is the only woman I know of in Scripture who was blessed, rewarded and exalted for mischief, and she is the only woman in Scripture I know of who changed a heavenly decree and received a different destiny than what God had planned, and this altered the entire destiny of the world. So, Leah teaches me the valuable lesson that I can change my destiny even when there is a heavenly decree, and change the destiny of the world. She broke God's rules, changed God's mind, and changed God's plans. Of the four Mothers of the tribes of Israel, Leah was by far the most blessed, loved, honored, and exalted by God.....

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Peter, the first Pope, the leader of the Apostles, and rock upon which the most influential institution on earth was built (the Roman Catholic Church) was a descendant of Leah’s son Judah…it was descendants of Leah’s son Levi whom God favored above the other tribes and gave them land for their inheritance, but God said the tribe of Levi would receive not land but God, making them a more sacred favored group…Virtually every priest who acted as a mediator between God and man had to be a descendant of Leah according to the old law. God chose Christ, the Messiah, to be a descendant of Leah as well…

After Leah’s husband Mussolini, the second most influential person in the Old Testament, is the guy that gave us the ten commandments and law of God, Moses. Moses was a descendant of Leah. Leah also gave birth to Jacob's only daughter.

To become Jacob's first wife, Leah had to deceive Jacob, and the most famous King, David, and the Messiah, was the fruit of that mischief. Rachel was loved by Jacob, Leah was loved by only God, and she totally changed prophecy and altered the world and God's plans by marrying Jacob through trickery and deception.

I'm fascinated that Rachel was Jacob's favorite wife, and Benito Mussolini said he would rather die than not have Rachel as a wife. And Rachel Mussolini has my birthday and her book about her husband is my second favorite book ever. Too many coincidences.

Anyhow, Leah remained strong and was victorious. Her nemesis Rachel died during childbirth, and Leah raised Rachel's two sons. It was Leah who was buried with her husband. Rachel was not.

When Joseph had a dream of the sun, moon, and stars bowing before him, the sun represented Jacob and the moon represented Leah, for Rachel was already deceased at the time. The moon is the most sacred symbol in Islam, it literally is their equivalent to a cross (or star of David in Judaism). So, I believe the moon to be "Leah" and Scripture agrees with me.

In other religions, the moon was thought to be a mother goddess and it was believed the moon influenced mainly women, fertility, pregnancy, childbirth, and relationship between mother and child. This isn’t too far off from what is In the book of Revelation Chapter 12 and in many paintings, the woman clothed with the sun and crowned with 12 stars, who battles the dragon is standing on the moon. It’s as though the moon is hers. So, for the moon to represent Leah means that her standing in Heaven is huge and she and her husband highly favored and exalted above all people on the planet, and symbolically she is exalted and raised to a status very similar to the virgin Mary or equivalent of a polytheistic goddess.

Some practices literally go moon bathing because they believe the moon influences their emotions, creativity, and full moon circles with candle vigils on full moons are thought to bring healing. There are various religions where items that people thought were sacred were laid out and blessed by the moon. The moon symbolizes the dark side of nature but also symbolizes Divine Feminine, the same thing that Spiders symbolize because they are female dominant, and I overcame my fear of spiders by facing my fear, holding my fear, loving my fear. I overcame fear of the dark by walking in the woods of Montana alone in the middle of the night and dancing with the moon. So, for the moon to represent what spiders represent, divine feminine, overcoming fears, and so much more, is too cool cuz I'm spiderman, but also, the moon represents Leah, spouse of Jacob (Mussolini).

Rejection and being bullied can be extremely painful but when I call out to Leah the heavy heart becomes light, and I can learn to laugh about rejection and turn it into something good like Leah did. Leah teaches me to rejoice over rejection, because it can be an opportunity to receive grace, and to grow closer to God and her. With each child she thought “Now my husband will love me”, but it doesn’t look like he did. What is known is she was the most influential female figure in building “The house of Israel”, and her husband is the only person in Scripture who fought with God and won, and God rewarded him with the greatest blessings in Scripture…and the only reason I know this is because of Mussolini and his wife Rachel.

When you responded to my absurd advances, an inner voice said "Jacob rejected Leah, it is time for Leah to reject Jacob.” I giggled.

She and her spouse were the only figures in Scripture I know of who were rewarded and blessed by God for scandalous behavior. If you break the rules the right way, it doesn't offend but entertains God. I call Leah's feast day "Joker" day, cuz her husband was like the joker, God’s beloved opponent. And who would batman be without the Joker? Jacob deceived Isaac (whose name means laughter) into thinking he was his brother by wearing hairy sheep skins, and his life is like a big joke and completely ridiculous….when reading his life story you think “you gotta be kiddin me”….

Jacob received the greatest blessing in Scripture through lies and deception, by fooling his old blind Father into giving him his Twin Esau's blessing and destiny. The entire destiny of the world was changed so that all Jews would descend from Jacob, when they were supposed to descend from his Twin Esau, who was his Father's favorite.

(Also, it's interesting to me we live in the Twin cities, and my favorite figure in the Bible was a fraternal Twin. The initials of Minnesota are M + N. Those two letters sound almost the same and are called “Fraternal Twins”. Mussolini put big M’s all over the place, and Napoleon, his favorite person in history put N’s all over the place and on his flag. M means water…N means Fish…we are called the state of 10,000 lakes…gotta be more than coincidence methinks)

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Leah was supposed to marry Jacob’s red-headed Twin Esau, but she wept and prayed that it not be so, and God heard and answered her painful petition. Jacob essentially accidentally stole her from his brother changing the whole destiny of earth, for Jesus Christ, the Messiah, God Incarnate came to earth through her line. Leah is by far the most influential female figure in the Old Testament, Jacob is the most influential male figure, and the two of them completely changed their fate and destiny which had a huge impact on the destiny of humankind.

Jacob also stole his brothers birthright and received graces and blessings unintended for him through lies and deception. And what's crazy is, I know of no other figure in the Bible like that. I don't even like a lot of the ridiculous Bible, but I cherish the story of Jacob, the contender with God who defeated God, His wife Leah whose tears and suffering made her win favor with God, who changed what her destiny was, who would win total victory over her persecutor, remained steadfast amidst persecution, and her descendants were more favored, blessed, influential, and loyal to God than were the descendants of her enemy Rachel...

Leah dealt with rejection throughout her marriage, so I look to Leah whenever I experience similar grief to what she did, and indeed taking her as an advocate, friend, and Saint never ceases to console me in dark times. I'm a Roman Catholic Shintoist. Shinto is the state religion of Japan, which means I don't follow Scripture or Doctrine, because Shinto is about relationship with the Kami (spirits, angels, Saints, heavenly beings, ancestors, souls in purgatory). The Kami that I am most devoted to and who influences me the most is Leah.

The story of Jacob and Leah is unique because God rewarded Jacob's and Leah's bad behavior with the greatest graces and blessings found in Scripture. Leah is my favorite female in Scripture because she was a reject like me and her rejection and abuse actually made her more rich and blessed by God. So, I'm never afraid of rejection, for it is simply a sip from the chalice that made Leah rich.

Back to Rome. I was reading about the feast of Saint Leah of Rome, what used to be the city containing Mussolini's unworldly headquarters, falls on march 22. The founding of the Fascist party was march 23rd. As I was finding the coincidence interesting, minutes after reading about it I go to the office to take meds and a lady says over the phone "my birthday is march 22". Then I buy headphones from someone and hear her name is Leah shortly afterwards that day. *shrug* it spoke to me.

I find it fascinating that Leah of the Old Testament was married to a man whose name is the same as Mussolini, they both have wives named Rachel, and the only other canonized Saint I know of named Leah, is Saint of what was Mussolini's capitol, called "Saint Leah of Rome". What are the odds....so I can't think of a better name than Leah for that Spiritual entity Mussolini spoke of that He served night and day, the Spirit of the Fascist state which connects the state to a higher society of purely spiritual beings. So, I'm consecrated to that spirit. Whatever her name is, there is not one more perfect than Leah which means "Woman in authority/chief/ruler".


Mussolini said the Fascist state is a living entity with a mind and will of it's own. He treated the state like his spouse, so there is a link between Leah, which means "Ruler/chief/woman in authority" and the title of Mussolini, "Il Duce" (Which means chief/ruler), and the living spiritual entity that he spoke of which is continuing to influence politics and rise in power today, especially in Russia, Italy, and after the election of Trump, people are saying American Government is going that rout.

Donald Trump, who quoted Mussolini while running, is compared to Mussolini more than any other president, and both Mussolini and Trump did what their prophetic name says. Donald means “Chief, ruler” the same thing Leah means. Trump is a lower card of a suit which defeats a higher ranking card of a different suit. Hillary Clinton was higher ranking, more qualified, more beloved by the media, and Donald Trump was a clown (joker) with no military or government experience…the first president lacking such experience. He was the lower card and Hillary the higher card, and he shocked the world when he Trumped her. I say this because it is evidence that names are linked to destiny for people who are special in God’s heart, and you are one.

The only two books I have bought as an adult was by Rachel Mussolini who knew Mussolini since he was 7, and Saint Louis De Montfort's book "True Devotion to Mary". I told Louis De Montfort and Our Lady that I wanted that book to be my life. It was the book that taught me about Jacob receiving the greatest blessing in Scripture by breaking the rules in a way that entertains God. Il Duce is Mussolini’s title and it has the same meaning as Leah "Chief/leader/ruler"…(I’m mentally ill Duce haha). Il Duce was executed and born into the world of the dead on April 28, 1945. April 28th is the day De Montfort died, and the feast day of the only writer I know of who glorifies the spouse of Leah's scheming, thieving, manipulating, and deceiving. Everything I learned about Jacob came from a book written by a man whose death and feast day Mussolini died on. And Jacob means Mussolini…what are the odds?….The only two books I have bought as an adult were about Mussolini. His spirit is speaking.

It is because of Mussolini's name meaning Jacob that is the only reason I thoroughly studied Jacob and his wife Leah, and thought you were a figure to fulfill a Mussolini prophecy. My apologies. Sorry you had to go through that.


Back to Saint Leah of Rome (city of Mussolini's headquarters). She was amazing and venerated by fascists. She was born of noble Roman parents, wealthy like a Queen and like the great Buddha did away with all wealth to become poor and treated like no one special. Of her Saint Jerome, her contemporary said

“ Who will praise the blessed Lea as she deserves? She renounced painting her face and adorning her head with shining pearls. She exchanged her rich attire for sackcloth, and ceased to command others in order to obey all. She dwelt in a corner with a few bits of furniture; she spent her nights in prayer, and instructed her companions through her example rather than through protests and speeches. And she looked forward to her arrival in heaven in order to receive her recompense for the virtues which she practiced on earth. “


Leah has the most interesting numerology results


The sum of the name according to the numerology tables assignment of numbers to each letter L(3) + E(5)+ A(1)+ H (8) = 17...17 is a most peculiar number I could go on and on about. For years now, on the 17th of each month I'm devoted to a soul who I declare to be someone after my own heart who was murdered at age 17. I moved into room 17 (5th) floor on valentines day when 17 died and 17 were wounded in a Florida shooting. In Roman numerals number 17 is written XVII. Making an anagram with this number it turns out as VIXI which in Latin means “I have lived”, the past tense implies that one is therefore dead.

So, I felt like the 17 souls were speaking to me and I keep pictures of all 17 on my wall. My favorite of the 17 victims was Irish, dressed like a leprechaun, and loved Saint Patricks day which is every March 17th.... VIXI (17)” has been found engraved on tombstones dating back to Ancient Rome, and I love Rome, and love cemeteries. Then I wrote to Donald Trump at the white House is located on 17th Street NW.

The miracle of the Sun in Fatima Portugal is the only reason you, and I met you because my Dad met a nun on the trip from Minnesota and volunteering with them is what brought me to Minnesota. The miracle happened in 1917. I met you 2017, 100 year anniversary of the miracle responsible for my living in Minnesota.

The primary numerology number for your name is 8 (1 + 7). 8 is the coolest single digit because it is identical upside down and on it's side it is the number for infinity, the number of the universe, number of the balance of the cosmic order, 8 is the number of perfection and totality of the universe. 8 is the best card in my favorite card game crazy 8's. The Chinese believe 8 is the luckiest of numbers and they try to get the number 8 in phone numbers, addresses, even car license plates. The Beijing Olympics began on 8/8/08 at 8 seconds and 8 minutes past 8 pm. The number I call more than any other number in Minnesota by far is 6128888888 (cab)....8 is also the most common code word I use when journaling so that anyone who reads my journal won't know what word I'm saying when they see an 8. But seriously, the numbers of your name couldn't be better or more interesting or infinite in possibilities.

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More on Mussolini (You've already read the important stuff)

The great Saint Leah of Rome, was born and died in Rome, the City Mussolini marched on (and named his son Romano in honor of), the Fascist Capitol, and the Capitol of Roman Catholicism.



Mussolini actually lived up to his name, marched on Rome with a rag tag militia (that was no match for Italian police or military), yet frightening the prime minister into declaring a state of siege, but the police loved Mussolini and rewarded him for breaking the law (Like Mussolini [Jacob] did in the Bible), then miraculously, without bloodshed, the prime minister stepped down, and Benito Mussolini became the youngest prime minister Italy had seen at that time, and only man to peacefully turn a first world Democracy into a Theocracy and exalt the Vatican, creating what is today the Independent Vatican city state.

There are many similarities between the Mussolini of the Old Testament, and Mussolini the Italian Dictator who seems to speak to me, and one of those similarities is he married Rachel, the name of the wife that Jacob (Mussolini) favored. Benito Mussolini’s wife Rachel wrote the only book I’ve ever bought online and one of two books I have bought as an adult, and both books are linked to Jacob and Benito Mussolini. To make it more interesting, after reading her book, she became my favorite female of modern times, and she was born 4/11, my birthday and it’s weird cuz Ruth 4:11 the numbers of mine and rachel’s birthday is “The LORD make the woman who is coming to your house like Rachel and Leah, the two who built the house of Israel” (Ruth 4:11).



That is huge that the names of Rachel and Leah were contained in a powerful prophetic blessing, because women didn’t play a large role in Scripture, and I know of no other blessing where names of Saintly women were used. That is huge that they are credited as building the house of Israel because Israel in Scripture is God’s bride and the name today of America’s greatest ally and only Democracy in the middle east, and the Catholic Church calls itself “the New Israel”, and Leah was married to Israel, and the Catholic Church would not exist had Leah not changed the world’s destiny by rebelling against her original destiny, and deceiving the contender with God.

I believe Jacob prefigured and overshadowed Mussolini, and they both had a spouse named Rachel, so I thought as Mussolini II (a nickname I have been called), you were a piece of a Divine puzzle to fulfill a Mussolini prophecy that Jacob prefigured the Italian Dictator...I'm so sorry to put you through that nonsense.

I feel Mussolini is our contender with God, restraining God’s wrath and fighting God on behalf of the world (based on a vision I had of Mussolini seizing the Kingdom of God and declaring himself to be Caesar (seizer) of the Kingdom of Heaven. One definition for the name Mussolini is seizer/grabber because Jacob came out of the womb grabbing/seizing his brother's heel. Lol!)

Mussolini did many bad things and ruled with an iron fist, but he also uprooted communism and secularism and was the greatest defender of Religion against a rapidly growing, enormous, Atheist Empire, that was spreading throughout the world. He saved Spain from Communist Takeover in the Spanish Civil war, and the Fascist soldier Francisco Franco became Mussolini's greatest disciple, and lead an uprising in 1936, that with the help of Mussolini's military saved Spain from the chaos and violence of the Second Republic, and brought Spaniards from abject poverty to the middle class in the 1960's, known as the economic miracle, and paved the way to a successful transition to the Democracy that Spain is today.

Fascism is a religious concept so it wells up in the minds and hearts of people. Mussolini's dream was that Atheist Communism would fall and there would be religion in schools and wedding between Church and state in Russia. His dream came true after his death. Putin is creating one bed for both the Orthodox Church and the state in Russia, and they have prayer in schools. The greatest enemy of Fascism, the greatest propagator of errors which was the soviet union, fell without firing a shot and was conquered by Mussolini's form of government. Today, what was once the most anti-fascist anti-Christian atheist state, is now considered the most moderate-fascist Christian-state, where Putin is doing what Mussolini had hoped would happen in Russia.


I kid you not, Leah and her husband Jacob are my favorite figures in the Bible because of Mussolini. I heard inward voices tell me to study the meaning of Mussolini's name which lead me to study Jacob, pray rosaries for Mussolini, write him and Leah letters, buy them incense and flowers, turn to him and Leah in times of sorrow or rejection, and it is Mussolini and Leah who are the reason I go to mass at the Cathedral daily, for it seems I am to pray for the soul of the new compassionate Fascist Dictator as he is being made clean and perfected to be worthy of heaven. So, also receive holy communion for his intentions and the intentions of Leah.

I had a vision of Mussolini as a butterfly and heaven transforming the caterpillar into everything the angels and saints would want to see in a Celestial Caesar. His corpse was hung upside down in public in 1945. One day a caterpillar hangs upside down to be transformed into a totally new creation. The Mussolini I know is kind and just. A new person. [Also, Butterfly and Spider holiday falls on the same day, march 14, and both spiders and butterflies represent what the moon represents, the Divine Feminine. I found that out shortly after looking up caterpillar silk which makes a transforming cocoon, to see if it had similarities to spider-silk.)

Jacob was like Mussolini. He was a fighter so strong he defeated God and God couldn't escape his grasp. God said "let me go", and Jacob wouldn't until God gave him what he wanted.

Jacob was a rebel, a liar, a thief, a schemer, a deceiver, violent, a thief, a narcissist, a man who believed himself to be above the law, and a superstitious man who dabbled in magic, all of which the famous Dictator Mussolini was who was a contender with God even taking on teachers and a priest and getting kicked out of school for stabbing someone. Mussolini was a history nerd and eloquent writer, and politician, but also a sword dueler, street-fighter, fencer, and seasoned street-fighter, something not seen in nerdy historians, writers, and politicians, which made the Italian people fall in love with him and let him replace their prime-minister and unravel their Democracy.

The irony is, God rewarded Jacob for breaking his laws. I know of no other person like that. Mussolini did that too. He seized newspaper facilities illegally before his rise to power and the police let him get away with it. They were supposed to arrest him but he was a likeable villain who I call “the joker”. He made people laugh and had many funny facial expressions and mannerisms and made religion fun. He totally dismantled Democracy which was illegal, and the people liked him so much the majority went along with what was the epitome of breaking Italy’s rules.

The name Mussolini means Jacob, which means "to Supplant. To remove from power and replace". Mussolini peacefully marched on Rome which was a first world Democracy, the prime minister called for a state of siege but was overridden. Mussolini was so loved, charismatic, and strong, that the prime minister was asked to step down and be replaced by Mussolini, the youngest prime minister in Italian History at that time.

He reigned for almost 23 years and boosted the economy, created jobs, patriotism, fervor, zeal, unity, and made Italians proud to be Italian. (He wasn't racist and the only reason he allied himself with Germany was he hated atheist communism , saw Nazism more tolerant of Religion, saw an opportunity to be Caesar of a 20th century restoration of the Roman Empire, and thought the two of them could destroy atheist Communist governments in the soviet union like they did in Spain, and keep prayer in schools and freedom of religion.)

Anyhow, I could write a book on Mussolini. His Doctrine of Fascism surprised me for it was not violent or racist (There were Jews at the highest ranks of the original Fascist party), but deeply spiritual form of government with lots of wisdom about self-discipline, renouncing selfishness, and defending religion and God from the attacks of atheist/communists. His wars of aggression were wrong, and he had his many faults, but he did much good.

I only bring up Mussolini because it is because of him that I learned about my buddy Leah (who has always been there for me these past years), for I had a Shinto spirituality where Scripture and Dogma are not important, for they divide people and distract them from relationship with the Kami (Spirits). Mussolini and Leah gave me a new sense of awe and appreciation for the scriptures that I thought were irrelevant, boring, outdated, and ridiculous.

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The Doctrine of Fascism says “the fascist state is an entity with a mind and will of it’s own”. I called the Fascist state the “bride of Mussolini”, For he served her night and day and died for her, refusing to get on a plane and find safety in Fascist Spain, for he didn’t believe that was his destiny unless there were enough planes for every fascist to go to Spain.

I have been called "Mussolini the second" and the great spirit of Leah is who I have been leaning on in trying times, even before I met you. If your name was not Leah, I'd not have been so excited about you, needy for attention, and made those advances, because in my drug-induced state, I thought there was a Mussolini prophecy to fulfill. I’m aware now that it was highly inappropriate and ridiculous to embrace such nonsense and need to have boundaries.

I write all this to give you a better understanding of my bizzare psychological condition. I can turn this letter into the mental health workers like I did the last letter I wrote you. Yes, I receive messages from Mussolini, Rachel, and a fascist government entity named Leah (Whom I know as the bride of Mussolini). So shoot me!

More importantly, I write this because you should know you have the most awesome female name. Women don’t do hardly anything in the Old Testament and hardly ever mentioned in the new testament. Leah was God’s favorite, and it is her that the moon represents in Joseph’s prophecy, and that is huge in my opinion due to what the moon symbolizes in other cultures and religions. It is the most powerful Divine Feminine symbol.

Were it not for Mussolini, I’d not have made those advances or had such strong convictions. I just think it rocks that Il Duce means the same thing as Leah and Donald, and if I ever had two daughters, they would be Rachel and Leah.

I've never in my life printed out the meaning and significance of a person's name for anyone, but Leah is like my guardian angel and my mamma. Rachel Mussolini is another close companion. I have no family members in Minnesota. They and Benito, the contender with God, have been there. I write letters to them, buy flowers for their shrine, talk to Leah while gazing at the moon, feel her spirit gently correcting me, and she disciplines me all the time for being immature and narcissistic. I read Rachel's and Mussolini's writings and find so much strength and inspiration.

I read from a spiritual giant: "We endure Leah, the cross, because of the joy of Rachel set before us. Leah gives us the spiritual strength necessary for rulership in the Kingdom while Rachel brings the compassion of heart that reveals the Presence of God to the nations. Together the two bear much fruit.

The addition of Leah to the promised Rachel happens to every true saint. Every one of God’s elect must have both his Leah and his Rachel.

Leah symbolizes the part of our salvation that is painful to us. Leah’s qualities were not obvious from an earthly standpoint. But whoever would have the beautiful Rachel must receive Leah also.

Rachel is what we desire of God and of life, the part of our Divine calling and inheritance that brings joy to us. We endure Leah, the cross, because of the joy of Rachel that is set before us. The vision of joy moves us to press on and on. The “book” of the Lord’s calling is sweet in our mouth but in our belly it is bitter. It is Leah (Revelation 10:10).

Many believers, including some ministers, have put Leah out of their life. By so doing they have put rulership with Christ out of their future. God knows what He is doing with each of us. We must have our Rachel and we must have our Leah. One of the greatest mistakes a Christian can make is to reject either Leah or Rachel. Both Leah and Rachel were the lawful wives of Jacob.

To reject Leah, to choose to live “deliciously,” to attempt to make our own Paradise on earth, is to prevent our growth in spiritual strength. In so doing we lose the Kingdom because the Kingdom of God is the rule of a perfected royal priesthood over the material realm.

Leah, who is abhorrent to us, gives us the spiritual strength to sit on the thrones that govern the universe. In Rachel we have the heart to love and bless the nations. Judah (of Leah) is the Lord, the King from Heaven. Joseph (of Rachel) inherits the earth.

It is our love for Rachel that inspires us to serve for many years. But Leah is given us along with Rachel. Rachel must die on the way to Bethlehem. Leah does not die along the way. Leah goes to the place of Abraham and Sarah, of Isaac and Rebekah, and of Israel himself (Genesis 49:31).

Throughout our Christian journey there remains the temptation to throw Leah aside, to set aside our cross. We always must keep in mind that it is given to Christ alone to lift the cross from our back. He who divorces Leah before he comes to the place of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob will never rule with God. The true saint always behaves himself honorably with Leah, and discovers eventually that the strength of Israel, of the struggler with God, comes from her."

Leah and Rachel prefigure Christ in his relationship to physical and spiritual Israel as both the nation and the Church of God."

But to clarify, Leah of the old testament only had inner beauty, where you do not share her quality of being unnatractive in outward appearance.

Also, Leah appears in Dantes dream on the mountain of purgatory "Young and beautiful, the biblical character Leah gathers flowers to make into a garland".

In the end, Leah was buried with Jacob, not Rachel.

So, cool! Leah is called the strength of Israel and she prefigures Christ and his Church. The only woman in Scripture who might be more influential than Leah is the Virgin Mary, but I argue Leah, for the Virgin Mary came from Leah's son Judah. No Leah means no Christ, no Mary, no Pope. Spiritual writers also have said Leah represents the active vocations of spirituality (work) and Rachel represents the contemplative branch of spirituality (prayer)


Can I have your autograph Miss Il Duce?...hahaha! Take care and don't do anything I wouldn't do. And do tell me what your Chinese Zodiac is.

Also, Rachel means ewe (female sheep). So, Jacob's wives were Leah and ewe (you). Hehe! I'll be praying for ewe Leah.

PopeADope said:

What I'm trying to do is simply make her feel special... Any ideas?

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1) Don't rush it.
2) Listen to her. Do the things she likes, avoid the things she doesn't.

Think with something above your waist, not below.

Good advice but does anybody have any ideas of what I should write to her?

PopeADope said:

Good advice but does anybody have any ideas of what I should write to her?

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I would avoid letter writing, bro... It's too intense, too formal. Letter writing is useful if someone needs to say something. Do you need to tell her all about her own name? Do you know what I mean? Do you really need to tell her? That's what seems out of place to me. It's the venue.... complimenting a woman's name is better executed casually in conversation. But I wouldn't dwell too much on it. It's sweet and flattering only in small doses.

If you want to make her feel special... don't say something...

DO something. Something she likes to do.

dybmh said:

I would avoid letter writing, bro... It's too intense, too formal. Letter writing is useful if someone needs to say something. Do you need to tell her all about her own name? Do you know what I mean? Do you really need to tell her? That's what seems out of place to me. It's the venue.... complimenting a woman's name is better executed casually in conversation. But I wouldn't dwell too much on it. It's sweet and flattering only in small doses.

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Okay, but if I had a name that significant I would want it written out in letter form like that A] so I could highlight parts or reread it. B] because there is too much there for a person to remember in conversation c] because I don't think anyone has ever told her this stuff and we're I her I would want to know

PopeADope said:

Okay, but if I had a name that significant I would want it written out in letter form like that A] so I could highlight parts or reread it. B] because there is too much there for a person to remember in conversation c] because I don't think anyone has ever told her this stuff and we're I her I would want to know

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Yes.

But....

That's only valid if She shares your enthusiasm for the subject matter. But, if you think she will appreciate it, you know better than me.

Getting a long letter likw rhat from someone you do not know well is nothing short of creepy.