If I had a better beard, looking at your profile pic, I could almost believe I was looking in a mirror.
I imagine going to a concrete place of worship is very comforting.
However I can't escape the feeling that waiting a lifetime for conformation of one's faith is a bit evil.
Faith confirmed is wonderful. Waiting a lifetime torturous. I hope you find fulment but dang, why does God prolong it so?
Great I have a twin
Consider Baha'u'llah was persecuted, exiled and imprisoned for over 40 years.
He offered us this to consider;
"The Ancient Beauty hath consented to be bound with chains that mankind may be released from its bondage, and hath accepted to be made a prisoner within this most mighty Stronghold that the whole world may attain unto true liberty. He hath drained to its dregs the cup of sorrow, that all the peoples of the earth may attain unto abiding joy, and be filled with gladness. This is of the mercy of your Lord, the Compassionate, the Most Merciful. We have accepted to be abased, O believers in the Unity of God, that ye may be exalted, and have suffered manifold afflictions, that ye might prosper and flourish. He Who hath come to build anew the whole world, behold, how they that have joined partners with God have forced Him to dwell within the most desolate of cities!"
Knowing that suffering is part of life is a great burden lifted.
I wish you always well and happy.
Regards Tony