standing_on_one_foot
Well-Known Member
I dunno, I've been pretty overwhelmed of late. I have to "come out" to my dad sooner or later, I'm scared as hell to do it, I'm completely confused about who I am, the dog isn't around and I'm canine deprived, and be damned if I don't feel completely alone right now...and on top of that, I'm sinking into self-pity. I hate self-pity.
Still, about coming out...any of the openly gay people have some fool-proof advice that'll suddenly make everything OK? No? No one? I mean, it's not the same for a transperson and a gay person, but still...still...I guess there never are going to be any easy way of going about this sort of thing. It's times like this I'd love to just punch someone who thinks I'm choosing to be like this.
And you know, it's funny, I'm not even that scared about my dad finding out. I mean, he loves me and'll love me no matter what, I know, so I'm not scared about that. I'm just scared he'll be upset that I've waited so long to tell him. I feel like I've been decieving him, and so I put it off, but the longer I put it off, the worse it gets...I feel like crying sometimes, you know, and it scares me because I really can't. I've tried and I just can't cry...I'm just being stupid here, I know.
Sorry about the rant or whatever it is, guys...it's been building up for some time now, and I really can't get it out in "real life" and all...I'll be alright in a little while, I guess I'm just sick of things right now. Hell, though, what am I complaining about? I have it so good, compared to so many people...but I've gone to the trouble of writing all this, I might as well post it. Maybe I'll get some good advice, after all.
Still, about coming out...any of the openly gay people have some fool-proof advice that'll suddenly make everything OK? No? No one? I mean, it's not the same for a transperson and a gay person, but still...still...I guess there never are going to be any easy way of going about this sort of thing. It's times like this I'd love to just punch someone who thinks I'm choosing to be like this.
And you know, it's funny, I'm not even that scared about my dad finding out. I mean, he loves me and'll love me no matter what, I know, so I'm not scared about that. I'm just scared he'll be upset that I've waited so long to tell him. I feel like I've been decieving him, and so I put it off, but the longer I put it off, the worse it gets...I feel like crying sometimes, you know, and it scares me because I really can't. I've tried and I just can't cry...I'm just being stupid here, I know.
Sorry about the rant or whatever it is, guys...it's been building up for some time now, and I really can't get it out in "real life" and all...I'll be alright in a little while, I guess I'm just sick of things right now. Hell, though, what am I complaining about? I have it so good, compared to so many people...but I've gone to the trouble of writing all this, I might as well post it. Maybe I'll get some good advice, after all.