Tribulations

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Anyway, this place makes my experiences all the more comical. I'm nothing without hysteria now... I've always gravitated towards intelligent and funny people, my polar opposite at the core of my problems. I'm a simple beast, If I were an animal, my spirit animal is the great wolf, I would be something like an Ox though. I graze, sleep, mate, get testi. No moral or ethical quips, I have a code of ethics, believe in honor... Honor is a thing... People argue over it's authenticity, if it's even real. Some say Honor is not real, there is no such thing, like God. ~

Honor to me is my very own sense of conscience... You do something good, you feel good, there's a food drive for the poor you can volunteer for, that's good honor... You go to War, to be myopic, the cause is to disarm a nation and establish democracy. You learn of the war racket, trade, business, contracting, proprietors, scandals, this brings your bad conscience, that's bad honor, or dis-honor. You steal a candy bar at the corner store, "feel bad," that is bad honor... But stealing a candy bar is nothing to feel bad over... Dismiss this grievance at once... Those are mass produced by the millions, your conscience isn't worth the thousands of dollars that $.99 cent candy bar may cost you, whether your caught or admit the heist. I found Bushido fantastic, but others discredit Shogunate because he wasn't a man slayer. I'm not going to go off on some rant about how some are just murderers, sociopaths, military conditioning, hate, pain, resentment... Bah.

Had to explain honor. +2 point life.

Thus far my experience with psychosis has been my beloved deities, cosmic forces, weaving in and out of me, hatred, resentment, disgust, all of their own emotions, feeling me out... It's sort of like entrapment and constant frameups, I've been successful thus far at not succumb to my animalistic hatred at the situation mankind is in. It looks like we're heading into another genocide, but that will never happen again.

The Gods want Atheism. That quickly became quite a laugh. But it made sense... It's the dogma, not that "G-d"i is a literal beings... v_v

All seems well for now, only regular is crap from other people, jealousy or otherwise... "Socializing" these days has become a troll in itself.


To continue...

My myopic views of Good, Bad, Right and Wrong seem fair enough... Ethics is like become one big scandal in America. If I can rip you off and get away with it, God bless Capitlasim, God Bless America.

It's not like we can all be Jedi. That's a pretty good example of right and wrong? Moral and Ethical depravity is a bi-product of religion though... People will chill out and cull eventually.. Or some plague will come around.. Nature can provide.

So basically, there's making an *** of yourself and comedy. Getting executed or murdered is temporary, right... I'm not a coward, I'm just immediately filled with hostility from others on occasion.

So I'll kick it off by saying I don't trust the V.A. I was going to arrange some spiel berating those assassins. I would trust my local corner alley way gangster herb dealer over those would be night blades. I mean, it's the immediate sensations of distrust I get from these people...

Being an "empath" makes life tough, being schizophrenic makes life tough, but I'm getting myself some help. This isn't a cry for help or one of those overly melodramatic things, just trying to arrange some laughter. It I were a mystical being, inexpliciable by science, this would be legendary. But the only think in my closet is children's skeletons. skeletons. skeletons. I still have the stench of death and burning people in my sinus's, 7 years after my ballad in the wasteland of Iraq, once the most incredible Kingdom on Erf. That whole compensation process was overly insulting.


So basically I was going to write a whole lot and forgot it all... sad bad.

Promote film


Historically atrocious but damn doth it honor that warrior Templar. So basically that was me from what I understand. I do not want to be this person, nor do I want that amount of bloodshed on my conscience.

Templar's were supposed to be in slaughtering Muslim demons in the droves. Bah, a tool for a massacre'.



Spoilers


So in this gut wrenching vision the Templar was seventeen raised by a church. Only dodgy visions of standing in file nude being doused in freezing water and sword training. The training wasn't even spectacular, we were just one with the blade, and extension of our bodies. About the Magna Carta, I hadn't even read it or even knew what was going on. I was sent from the Church, joined the Baron and when people started coming over the walls I just started killing them instinctively.

The Viking Captain Tiberius was Michael it seems, being handled by that determined King John. He was trying to keep Catholicism out of Scandinavia and Europe. But that's not canon to the warrior of Christ and Saint of All Saints.


Inadequate words complete the rest of the atrocity, battle.

And the ending was the most wrong bad. The Templar was victoriously trotting out of the fort, pulled off his horse and immediately executed by being burned at the stake for treason.

That's a piece of trauma that has stayed with me. It's not a deep trauma, just insulting.



So as you can see, re-incarnation is a little extreme. It's problematic and the psychological trauma any supposed deity would have would be inconceivable.

I raised the ante:
https://www.shroomery.org/forums/showflat.php/Number/23675724#23675724
Are you ready to re-incarnate again?

I've been encouraged by the psycho gods to take up mycology, as well as being made fun of for not even knowing the fundamentals of picking a mushroom.

I know not to eat a toadstool... Hera laughed, and 90% of that other crap out there that can kill you... She spent the coming days frolicking in the woods. She seemed to feel young again, it was delightful for a moment.

Drug use is against the rules doe! And it's Illegal! Against the rules. bad wrong bad.


I was going on about the middle ages for a minute now... The All Father said that's back when people were still pink in the middle. LOL


Getting burned alive ain't funny though, tear in my eye, that's quite a trifle to deal with. I've been thinking of some cool stuff to stay as I tend to find myself crucified.


I don't even know how to spin that one, good to get off my chest. I'll have to be beaten and water boarded to disclose the rest. The Government will Ghost me and the police won't hesitate to put me down for adopting a personality. Ultimately there's not much to report, asking for my silence is absurd though, being murdered is a reasonable constituent.


Have a nice day, Burl, you seem lovely. I have no idea what you're forum is talking about. lol


Oh Snap, there was also a genocide throughout the middle ages against the mentally handicap and deformed... Those demons were teh spawn of the devil. Not many people know about that under the rug.

They're puttin'em to work here the Americas. I was like what is this the middle ages? Handicap working. First world country. 2016.

Lol tried some poetry, I suck at such things...

God said he would turn this world into gd loony tunes if he want to. People want to get silly, he can get silly.. You see Bugs Bunny walking around Disney land with an AK47, just get the f out of dodge.

People are just innocent bi-standards in a primordial, carnal need for battle. Dogma is just a tool and you are either sheep or wolves. Predator or prey, but we have law and money... What poetry could go on from there, well, write it down yourself I'm not about to write the tripe.

Things are looking up. The Virtuoso of War. He need no applause, no silver, no gold.

We're civil, intellectual, capable human beings. It's just the double standards and hypocrisy and bold face ignorance that gets to me..

I have a severe problem with focusing on the negative, like dead babies, but that's in ever bodies closet noaw.

So this stinks the most, I'm being scorned for gross immaturity. This display of incompetence is deemed unacceptable by the cosmic powers. Schizophrenia is the biggest bs... Here I am, 2016, legendary bad as-, can't even brag about my massacres.

So I guess Zeus or Jupiter was poisoned/ assassinated by possibly the Church. But he wasn't real so I'm not going to go into explicit details other than that he may be distant for eternity. Numerous heroes and deities were systematically assassinated by poisoning, burning at the stake or numerous inconceivable methods of dispatch. Where's the legends, the fame, the gold, eh.

I will continue to come back as I like violence and this planet is full of it.

As for proving I was in that gruesome film posted above, only some basic archaeology and forensics around the base of the castle could find out if a human being was incinerated out there... Apparently someone may have assumed that knights identity as well, it's true. I'd take no pride in that event... Primo Nocturne was sick but I wouldn't have been in that massacre or fought for Catholicism, had I had a choice, and I didn't. The Jew rights were added later, I guess, punitive tax stuff.


So, anyway, I was....

Greek
Roman
Celt/ Scot and Irish
Norwegian
German
Hindu :O
Belgian jk
American

Zeus finally displayed his indifference towards nationalism... Go to battle you choose, stay impersonal.

So my brain is full carnage... I was never Israeli though. NEVER ISRAELI. I was enslaved numerous times... One day you're out picking berries and mushrooms going on about writing stories about Odin's epics and a caravan rolls by, you're beyond f-cked... You try to run, they catch you, you're in the desert a month later being treated like an animal.

As far as the joking and gossip about the fairies and gods that will distress me no longer, I guess. I thought it could be like the old world for a time, I miss Ireland.


Cool story, thanks hope you enjoyed the antics.

There was a sketchy story about some Spartan that went berserk back in ancient Greece, I guess it was me... So if I murdered you bad...


They're much more powerful than I may have illustrated in my tripe, I seem to be relatively puny. They're inexplicably powerful, but manifest in the flesh more over than in the clouds with the fairies. I don't know why it has to be so hard, I know at least one Deity could prove he exists with an extremely amazing display of power but refuses to. He did appear, others saw him, nobody stopped the press, nobody took a picture.. Sad bad..

The Gods wrath is indeterminate. You're just innocent bi-standards to me.


I was like why doesn't somebody get radical and take on the roll of the Anti-Christ or be a God or Jesus. So I was going to go act like a lunatic in public and they intervened. People are that lame.. 2000 years nobody wants to be the Anti-Christ...


Edit

Once again take my tripe as a grain of salt, it was fun to entertain and get off the chest... I would prefer most of this be off the record unless the Govment really is watching me.

As far as re-incarnation and all, it's ultimately baggage thus far... It's not like Satan or somebody can just upload sword mastery to my brain like the matrix. So that makes it less believable to me, just vague traumatic memories of burning to death, that's really the only thing that has bothered me after killing several thousands, perhaps millions of people.

It seems though, what you may know in subconscious my remain in instinct, so you may be and accelerated reader or adept at something like swordplay. Ultimately useless though and inconceivably unbelievable.


Cheerio'.